BLACKSTONEROCKON

2009-01-23T16:35:00.004+08:00

Some endings take a long time to review themselves
And when they do, they were too easy to be ignored.

2008-12-30T21:48:00.004+08:00

HEY READERS,

I'M SUPER SORRY..
I AM GOING TO SWITCH SITE AGAIN...
SAD, ISNT IT?
BUT THIS ROUND..
IT'S NOT RELATED TO ANY PERSONAL REASONS OR SOME FLAMERS...
IT'S THE BLOGGER'S OWN FAULT..
SADLY...I THINK I POST TOO MUCH PHOTOS..
SUCH THAT I USED UP ALL MY ACCOUNT'S MEMORY..
NO CHOICE...GOT TO MOVE..T^T

NEW LINK: BLACKSTONE-PEACENOW.BLOGSPOT.COM
OR SIMPLY CLICK HERE

2008-12-22T23:40:00.001+08:00

HEY PEERS...
I'm back from a Three days trip to HK...
HAHA^^
will update soon..
=)

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2008-12-09T21:46:00.012+08:00

Today was sick...
Down with a slight fever, sore throat and a heavy running nose..
i suppose it's the weather as it's really cold right now..
about 13 degrees and my foot are freezing cold..
haha...
i took a leave to stay home to rest...
kinda tired and dizzy after taking those medicine...
slept till 2 plus in the afternoon...
finally got up to have my lunch ..
next, initially wanted to paint my wall..
ended up went to watch movies online..haha..
Miss my friends so much..>________<

Few days back...
On Sunday...
I went to have a lunch "yum cha"
with my cousins and grand nieces at MGM (another beautiful casino)
hahaha..
The place was awesome..just like Venetian...

i suppose i wish to have one big mirror in my room next time..^^

aint the toilet beautiful???awww...
dun be jealous...heehee..

a sculpture by DALI~~~~
COOL~

beautiful decorations and designs...

^^

some free drawing...
This ang mok artist is super expert..
he can draw on the spot without using pencils to out line
^^....I admire him!!

just cool buildings and i just love it..
i should have wore my lolitas to take photo here..
wasted..ahaha..

i love my double deckers boots

lucky fountain^^

she's another twin buddy of mine..

she kept pestering me to take photo while i wanted to eat my food..RArrr

aint they just adorable..?
I LOVE THEM!!!HeeHee....
I LOVE KIDS

Yeah

2008-12-06T20:17:00.011+08:00

HAPPY SATURDAY!!!~~
OH MY...SO HAPPY TODAY...
IT'S HOLIDAY...
AND, NO WORK!!~

Finally, after a week of hard work...
This weekend is saved for shopping and relaxing...
I am so glad i slept for almost 11 hours from last night till today...
And, not just that...
i went to learn Wood block print with my artistic father...
At times, i felt really proud of my parents...
Both dedicated teachers and were really intelligent...
Like my father, i just love to follow his foot-steps and learn more about art..
After all, he worked as an art teacher and make art as his passion and career..

Today, i told my dad a story on A said B criticized a country and the irony is B still studied in the place.. Well, i told my daddy B only study there and that country may have a better education
but it doesn't mean B MUST like the people there? Or rather, most of the people are normal..
Except some...

Next, my daddy told me...
There are many people on earth who talked about other people's life, their thoughts and even
trying to be vicious to the person..
And, he told me, B should ignore totally about these kind of people..
Because..they plainly are jealous and if not have unkind intentions..
wanting to watch you "die"
Lastly, they may be good at just saying..however, they were too timid in their mind and heart..
He told me that B should just keep quiet for now and see how thing goes..
when it's the time... A will eventually get their karma and people will just look at how foolish they were...

haha..
it's just a matter of time?
i agreed with father..
somehow..i think my family is the best on earth..
We, 10 grandchildren, living together happily ..
having a great aunt to take care of us fully-hearted..
and, we don't even have to worry about food, shelter and warmth..
so, what for care about people who dislike u and starts to stalk u?
may be, they really felt that you are their idol such that they admired you..
i think we should be thankful to such people who watches every movement, every word and even everything about your life..
It's great to have them...
it just make life much more wonderful and interesting..

sometimes, games do brighten up a person's day..
but, games do require sacrifices ..
which is time and may be energy..
but if it came with joy and fun..
then deserve it..HAHAHA

Don't know what crap i was talking..
But the only thing i learnt is that i got great friends and family..
Unlike......

Just like what dummy said...
words cannot changed the truth...
So, i have faith in all the truth that won't be broken just by few words people said..

OKAY~
let's back to the week that had passed...
i went to a art exhibition with Elena and went shopping with her..
Really enjoyed ourselves..
i just love to talk to her...
she super dumb and funny...
After all.. it was fate that brought this friendship together..
We knew each other through a trip to japan
we are same age, shared same interest (ART) and we love japan!!~
She didnt forget my birthday and often cared about my life..
chatting with me on msn and even asked me out when i am in Macao..
That's what i call unbreakable friendship bonds..
even overseas...we are still as good as seeing each other..
Look, i got great friends!!!( Just like Mx and many others who care for me)
Sob sobx...

her painting...first time touched acrylic..
already very well done!!^^
haha... now i see why macao got better talents..
Because government emphasize on ARTs..
After all, Macao-ians are outstanding and civilized...^^
chey...just kidding yea?

kawaii desu..but i more cute..bleh

the teacher and elena

the main purpose i went is to eat..heehee..
to fill my hungry tummy..haha
jus kidding...

single shot

her friends' painting...cool~

primary school children's art piece..
nice right?
CREATIVE

fireworkk^^

abstract mixed media

it looks like someone WE all know
it's someone who is kinda famous recently on web..
guess who?
obviously..
NOT ME...
but the picture was well drawn..
and i took it because i hope someone recognise himself or herself here..HAHA

We are mad over the empty overhead bridge

=O=

SNOW MAN!!!

don't steal peopl's hat lei..hhaha

heehee...i love my F21's knitted hat

Rarrrr..I GONNA TO EAT U UP

hi five!!

yeah!!^^v

smile...=)

We took picture after eating in expensive Japanese Restaurant..
hahah..
forgot the name le..
it was at Fisherman's Wharf

after that..we went to play arcade..
OH my..
Macao just have the best arcade..
ALL TOUCH SCREEN!!!!!
can u believe that
i think it will take years for sg to have that
T^T
hope to bring Mx to go there play!!=)

Some pictures sent by Pau

This is what friends are for..^^

where was i looking..ahhah

Qx and her collarge

ME and my precious..haha

they are my bao bei

stupid pau..took a stupid pic of me..hahaha

yeah!!!MX ROCKS ON

WE ARE MX...and we will forever BE

i love this picture the most..
we all caught off guard and loved the funniest..
or may be true heartedly laughed..haha
damn, elaine was not there..ahha

Mao xian family photo^^

2008-12-03T23:10:00.008+08:00

well, this is where i worked..haha...
i guess it's still better than sales..
learning how to sow and management..

list of contacts to remember and for transferring calls

so nice designs i came up with during breaks

that's my desk

flowers i drew today and the guard told me it's super ultra nice..
and, he said...i gonna to be a great artist..ahhaha..
oh btw..there's this little girl on the top..
it's not anyone..so don't try to recognize yourself..
haha..my colleague told me to help her draw

Some pictures that missed out..haha

Tammy and i

what a face i gave..hahaha

we are superwoman....so don't try to test us!!!
WE WILL SLAP YOU RIGHT IN YOUR FACE IF YOU DO..
SO WATCH OUT ENEMIES...ahahahah

TAKE 2

peace^^v

Awww.... i got just so many true friends...heehee
aint they just cute and sweet..
Mx, i miss you all...
but sadly...we got two new stalkers haix..
they love us somemore..hahah

look at pau..so funny lo..haha

bleh...finally...no more unnecessary bgs

heehee..MX ROCKS ON

dont try to test my patience or you end up with this ball up your vaginas..
hahah..lol..so rude man...just kidding..may be just replace your penis..
Sun SHINES bright

we bought same clothes..
thanks hy and qx for pei me go shopping and print photos..
what lovely friends i have ..haha
i just love them
^^

H2Q

heehee...3 rings for $5 only..
wth...though cheap..but still need to listen to the auntie for crapping loudly into our ears..ahha

TCC

i miss dummy..

perlini silver...ex ok..?
hahaha...

i love the giraffe darl bought..^^

dummy...<3

2008-12-03T19:23:00.008+08:00

TO KRISTABLE KHOO:
HAHA...
THANKS FOR MAKING ME HAPPY ...
I THINK IT'S KINDA A TIRING PROCESS COPYING MY WORDS AND PASTING THEM?
HAHA...WELL, I ADMIRE YOU FREE-NESS..
JUST THOUGHT ABOUT ME BEING SO IMPORTANT IN YOUR LIFE JUST MAKE ME FEEL HONOURED..
HAHA... EVEN GOT PEOPLE GO COPY MY WORDS AND POST IT?
OH MY, HAD NEVER THOUGHT THAT I AM SO FAMOUS...^^
THANKS KRIS..HAHAHA...
HAPPY NOT MAKING FRIENDS WITH YOU^^
BUT SAD, YOU HAVE TO ENDURE ALL THE FLAME?
HAIX... KE LIAN...^^

JUST LOVE TO FOOL YOU TWO SISTERS AROUND..
YAWN* SO TIRED...
AFTER ALL, FELT KINDA SAD YOU ARE NOT TAGGING ANYMORE..
NEXT TIME, WHEN I AM BORED..
THEN FIND YOU ALL PLAY BAH..HEEHEE...

I WILL KEEP THIS AS MY FUN MEMORY SINCE YOU SAID I TRY SO HARD TO FLOOD MY TAG BOARD AND DELETING POSTS..
WHEN...TO ME...
JUST A CLICK...POST ARE HIDDEN...
AND TO TYPE CRAP AND LAME STUFFS IN MY TAG BOARD..
IT'S JUST CHICKEN FEET..HAHA...
I VERY LONG TIME NEVER TOUCH MY TAG BOARD..
SO...I GOT A PLEASANT TIME TO FLOOD IT..
ACTUALLY QUITE FUN..
YOU SHOULD TRY TOO?
BTW, I DON'T EVEN WANT TO KNOW YOUR FRIEND HUIHUI?
BECAUSE AFTER ALL I AM NOT AFRAID TO LOSE MX...
AND I DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT BEING MS NICE TO YOUR FRIENDS..HAHA...
AFTERALL, WHO CARES ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS?
HAHA... I HADNT EVEN DRAG ANYONE FOR EVIDENCE..
WELL, YOU ARE JUST AFRAID TO LOSE ,YEA?
HAHA....

OKAY LAH...
DON'T WANT WASTE TIME ON YOU TWO..
I HAD A PLEASANT TIME FOOLING WITH YOU ALL
SORRY LAH...
I MAY BE MORE MATURE AND CIVILISED THAN YOU PEOPLE..
JUST GET SOME LIFE LADIES?
=)

SO HUNGRY NOW..GOING TO GRAB SOME FOOD..
YAWN*
TIRED WORKING...HAHA..
BUT HAPPY TO BE SOMETHING MORE THAN A SALES
HAHH
-EDITED-

2008-12-01T20:06:00.007+08:00

HEY DARLINGS~
I AM AT MACAU NOW...
HAPPY~
will be working five days per week at my cousin's company...
excited and a bit nervous...gotta sleep earlier tonight!!~
i miss my dummy!!~
Will be meeting elena soon~
=)
and going to SHOPPING SOON!!!!~~

Btw, i switched site not because of some visitors' comments..
but actually other reasons related to my family members..
but i just dun understand why people think themselves so important in my life?
they find little things wanting to agitate me...but end up making me laugh my ass off..
to me...selling off lolita stuff will only show how poor you are and not using them..
show people how a spoilt kid u are..by spending so much money but not using the products anyway..HAHAHAHA....
thinking that people thought i closed down the blog because of them...
just showed me how foolish people can be..
hey..
if u see this..
please note that..
you all are so childish man
=)
Ohh~
btw, i want to say one thing..
LOLITA IS NOT COSPLAY^^
and if want to wear them, please do wear them properly..
match them with brains..haha...may be should look into magazines..

i am not saying that i wear lolita very pretty..
but at least...i don't insult the clothes by anyhow matching them^^
i respect Lolita...
wearing branded lolitas but not knowing how to wear them..
it's considered an insult..
poor Lolitas..T^T

anyway..hope u love my hometown..
haha... Read your post.. went macao yea?
haha..

30 of November 2008,
Ms Lie hang U left Singapore for her homeland Macao^^
Though only two Mao xian came to send me off...
The rest sent their wishes and care through messages...
Was really touched...
Qx and Pau went to send me off...

Qiao xin...
She's the most dumb dumb girl in Mx,
alwys kena cheat money by me..heehee..
LOL...
after Olevel, she had been really close with me..
She helped me through a lot of stuff...
Especially help me covering up the outings with dummy...
We do have conflicts here and there...
Nonetheless, i still love her as my nuer...
Actually, she is very naive and stubborn at times...
She need care and love.....
Being a trust worthy and caring friend, she never failed to lend a listening ears whenever i am upset or delighted...
We shared all troubles and laughed over stupid stuff...
that day i left...she made a collage for me...
And surprisingly...cheated me on sth i would never thought of..
If you guys remember giraffe the magnet toy...
there's a lady bird magnet toy...
Qx pull me to the shop to purchase it, lying to me that she wanted to have it...
I was like so shock when she gave it to me that day i left...
It's 10 bucks ok?
Expensive...but i guess...she really treat me as her BFF, so do i...
Qiao xin...Thanks...

Pauline...
this crazy girl...
wore the same shirt she wore the last year sending me off...(they gave me a birthday surprise)
i was so surprised she woke up super early that morning just to send me off..
Even so, she was still late meeting Qx...hahah..
but i really happy that both of them made it to send me off..
this girl...
have been friends with me for four years...
she is the nicest person i see on earth..
whenever people asked her to do things..
she confirm will help and sometimes, she didnt even have time to manage her own stuff..
haix..this nuer of mine....also dumb dumb de..
Nevertheless, she had always been there for me...
Through all break downs and difficulties..
i pity her that she have to listen to my duck voice everytime i called to fan her...
there was a time...dummy bullied me and she even cried because she was so angry...
^^ Mx are really my true friends...
Pauline gave me a special letter that day...
it was recorded in the CD...
cool right?
she sounded like a old ah ma..

Hui yee
this ah so...
hahah...flood my tag box..
she went to M'sia that day to eat with her parents..
rich kid man..hahah...
She wrote a super sensible letter for me the day before i left..
^^
i only got close to her recently...
though she is kinda irritating at ti,mes..(being so ah so)HAHA XD
but she is actually very kind-hearted and friendly..
she will go mad shopping with me...
spending lots of money with me...heehee...
she blamed that i alwys cause her to lose money...HAHA...
hy, thanks for being there for me too..^^
u are my lovely BFF( H2Q rocks)

Elaine TAMMY..
she's mad...
went to quarrell with her mom..
haha...thanks for sending my messages and played webby with me^^

Jia yan...
J square will rocks on man...
sad she cannot come and send me off..
but i was elated to recieve her message that morning^^
hope to see you soon J square...

PEGGY PTPX
DOGGY!!~
i love her hamsters..
but i hate them for biting...LOL...
miss her lots..

Mao Xian..
I will never forget them...
Throughout my secondary school life...
they make me grew up and stop acting childish and idiotic...
Making myself a more pleasant person to be with...
They accompanied me through thick and thin...
Never gave up on me...
So do i...
As the founder...i will love and support Mxs forever...
Even when we graduate, went overseas, parted for families, got married..
I will still remember these wonderful friends i have...
Mao Xian thank you so much for what you all have done for me...

^^

Mao Xian rocks forever...~

2008-11-27T11:03:00.008+08:00

SAYING GOODBYE IS ALWAYS NOT EASY
This time...
I have to say good bye to my dearest cousin."NATHAN LAU CHI HOU"

who have lived with me, played with me, joked with me, played pranks on me and study with me for the past eight years..
Nathan had left for Hawaii to pursue his next level of education..
Same as his sis, Loretta, he left because their parents wanted them to study in America at a lower cost.. But one thing different from his sis..Nathan said he doesn't like studying in Singapore..HAHA...

Anyway..this cousin of mine..
Studied in the same primary school with me..
same class in pri 4
and we went into the same secondary school..
surprisingly...in the same class throughout the four years...

Nathan is a complete JOKER..
he loved to make prank on people...
he had the lamest acts on Earth
he never failed to make people laughed at his fats...
esp when he loved to show off his fats, calling them muscles...LOL
Despite all the irritating things he did, he is still a trust worthy guy who never failed to help his friends...
i remembered there were several times..
he actually lend sums of money to his friends to help them?
even though sometimes he still got scam...Dumb ass..

I love my cousin..
he alwys kept secrets with me..
According to our agreements...
so far, we have not slipped out each others secrets yet..
^^
Just the night before he left..
he told me he bought a present for me online..
I was really touched..^^

Hope he wont forget the siblings in HK, MACAO& SINGAPORE.
And most importantly, the friends here....

Nasty Nats...
GOOD LUCK~

NATS POOLSIDE PARTY AT PEG'S HSE

JJ, Gary, Nats, Mr Ngiow, Gavin, Meng and I

PEGGY's HAMSTER~~~~

KULBIR

guess who?

Group pic

heehee...
edited

hope it wont really looked ugly?

THE DAY HE LEFT!!!~

with popo...
Popo took care of him since he came here to study..
she was really sad to see him leave..
Afraid that don't know when she can see him again..
haix...
seeing popo cry..makes me want to cry too..=(

with the brothers and sisters

with friends and tchr

2008-11-26T18:06:00.020+08:00

BIRTHDAY PICTURES
here come my burthday pictures...
hees...
there were alot more photos in Elaine's and Pauline's camera...
They kept Ps me...Ending up i only upload mine
T^T

this was what i wanted to wear that day...
but end up i wore another set...
Mao xian together with dummy set a plank on me..
Hui yee told me she gotta work from 8 am to 5 pm
while the rest request for extra time as they were not ready to go out yet...
( though we set our meeting timing at 2.30 pm)
Firstly..i was really upset as i thought they all didnt want to go out and i am making such a big fuss out of my burthday...
Later, when elaine called at about 3 plus...
she actually slipped her words...
she told me huiyee was with qiao xin at Imm..
i was so shocked to hear that and i started to question Elaine...
I told her hy was working and how can she be there?
Next....just when she started to cover her mistakes...
I heard a few giggling of hy and qx...
That was the time is started to suspect...
After elaine's call...Qiao xin called and told me she was with her mama...
then i started to find everything so weird and aksed her if they were playing a prank on me..
Incredibly, qx denied and i kinda put my thoughts aside..
Just after the call and while i was getting ready to go off...
the door bell rang and my maid went to answer it but to see noone outside...
Next i walked out and see poppers and screams splashing right into my face..
It was chaos and surprised that i didnt know they will come to my house...
LOL...And, it was ALL OF MAO XIAN!!^^

it had been quite a long time since we mao xian gathered as a group^^
SO touched!!!~

I felt guilty and really sorry for my dummy that day...
After MX's surprised...everything went so not according to plan...
So, i wasnt able to meet dummy afterthat...
i actually Ps him for the whole day eventhough he wanted to be with me for my birthday...
felt so guilty after that....
My day wasnt really pleasant without dummy...
MX went to play pool and bowling and makan...
About 7pm to 8pm, dummy gave me a surprised by buying this giraffe for me...
I WAS REALLY TOUCHED>___________<

i took father's money to buy sth for myself..
a winter hat from F21 at the price of $23=)

Pocky..

Thanks Lamer...^^
It was really nice of you...
I was so surprised to see sooo many pocky...
i wondered how i am going to finish lo...
^^
thanks anyway...

MX and Dummy and I bought this

A purse from Baby The Stars Shine Bright.

One family^^

WALL-E mouse pad...Kawaii desu...
I must get one more for ELENA!!!=)

Nail polish....nice?hahaha...
i painted my toes yellow and nails pink..
darl contributed two of them...thank you^^

..........
Mao xian came into my room and cam whore the whole two hours....
And i broke my mama's drawer...
Coz i sat on it...heehee...
MAOXIAN ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THESE PEOPLE ARE MAD...

THEY STARTED TO PLAY WITH MY WIG
AHHAHAHAHA
XD

PEGGY PX

TAMMY

At night...celebrated with family...^^

i love that chocolate cakee!!!~
thank you MAMA....^^

I TURNED 17~

2008-11-24T23:48:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!~
THANKS ALOT FOR THOSE WHO WISHED ME BIRTHDAY...
ESPECIALLY MAO XIAN, DUMMY AND FAMILY WHO REALLY GAVE ME THE BEST PRESENTS AND GREAT CELEBRATIONS WITH ME...
THANK YOU PEOPLE...
I JUST LOVE YOU ALL!<3

special thanks to friends who either message me or nudge me on msn:

Marcus
Gavin
Weng Tat
Kai tung
Io Tong
Joan
How chwen
Carmen
Priscilla
Jia Yi
Si yao
Monkee
Sany
Wei Ping
Hui jia
Jia Yi nuer
Elena
evangelin
Hong Hao
Jia yan
hui yee
Peggy
Qiao xin
Pauline
Elaine
nathan
meng yang<3 and my family members..

(*P.S. if i missed out any...i am sorry lah..cannot remember much*)

GOT LOTS OF PHOTOS TO UPLOAD!

BUT TOO TIRED TODAY
WILL GATHER THEM AND POST IT LATEST TML NIGHT

STAY TUNE PEOPLE!~

THANKS~

HAVE A GOOD HOLIDAY!

2008-11-21T10:56:00.002+08:00

Have you ever dreamt of someone you will never thought of dreaming?
And may be in that dream, that someone did something you will never expect he/she will do..
After that, you woke up, remembering every detail of the dream..
Finding it amazing..
LOL....

I dreamt of someone last night..

^^

2008-11-18T14:49:00.000+08:00

Graduation (Friends Forever) - Vitamin C
And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

1 - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Repeat 1

La, la, la, la?
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la?
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Repeat 1 (3x)

94

2008-11-16T16:46:00.029+08:00

HERE COMES THE GRAD NITE POST! (Gosh! Finally!^^ Uploading millions of photos..and sending them through msn, definitely drive me crazy...But now, this is the POST!~) On the 13 of november... It's the last paper for our school... I guess everyone couldnt wait to tear off their entry proof.. Or just make it vanished, once they stepped out of the examination hall..^^ PEOPLE!!!O LEVEL IS OVER!!!~ CHEER~ After four years of hard work...they paid off... However...All i felt is boredom through the days after grad night.. Is like...there's nothing to do except shopping online watch movies and get yourself fat.. LOL... Perhaps that's the life we wanted so much in the past four years.. but it seemed not to be like what we thought i will be... haha... (=

Just few days before the grad nite.. I went facial..perm hair...and manicure.. Shopping with hy and qx... And getting so excited over that night...^^
I GOT 100 K in my nails... Please dun rob me...hahha

THAT NIGHT!!

Peggy's sister actually fetch us to and fro the destination..
Thanks so much..hahah..
the girls, hy and qx, actually took a long time making up and preparing..

And for that day...i became their make up master...
chey..just kidding...i just helped them touched up...
hope they enjoy themselves in my room...haha..
the funny part was that peggy thought the grad night was starting at 7.30pm..
So, basically...we were all late and reached there at about 7.30pm, just as what peggy predicted..haha....
the journey was fun talking about bras and woman stuff...
Girls just cannot lived without bras..
that's one thing i learnt..haha

the ugly me that night!=)

We spent $80 for these graduation night where by teachers got us a Dj..
Whom i think he did a pretty good job...
He brought up the atmosphere and i guess everyone was so high and happy that night...
Btw...mx with four other 4C boys were sitting at table 4...haha..
does that mean shi*(die)? or it's just four years of secondary school life..
up to u all to think..
it's kinda lame..ahha

I am the spy photographer who always snap pple's ugly pictures...
especially for MX..aahhah

the theme was retro..but i guess little followed the theme...
but the powerpoint was wonderfully done..
thanks teachers!

4C and 4D classmates performing..
singing for the night...
ALIF,DZUL,AFIAN and SALIHIN?
hahah couldnt rmb

and the group of hotties on the next table begun to dance!!
Aint they gorgeous?

my dear wife dinah in the leading

WOOTS!!

food

food
actually there were more nice food..
just that...
we all missed them because we were too busy taking photos at the corridor..
Haix..
that was the most regretful thing we did that night...)=
the prom king and prom queen that night...
CONGRATS!!!
Loo Jia Yi and
Shuhailah!!!!

i took a back piece of the guys...
Jia yi gary and syaful?
ahhah...

nice effect? But ugly us?

MAO XIAN PHOTO SESSION^^

Me, Pau and Qx

ME and Ah so(MXH)

tammy and i
(MXC)(we are the founder of MX)

TOH PENGUIN...now known as Wonder PIG(MXE)

PAU..(MXZ)

Aka NUER(MXZ)

JY( J square will rocks on in our heart)
(MXY)

If i am a sheep..
then she will be god plus hamster..^^
PEGGY TAN PAN XI
the monk!
(MXG)

FRIENDS SESSION!!~

with jie ying...the sexy that night^^

Mei Qi

Cindy

Qing Mei?

Nida

Farhana

Jean

ATIKAH...Daughter!

kai yung

ah so

pamela...hahaha ..i am their forever lao lao

with my dearest cousin...NATHAN...
ahha...
korkor chi kai helped him dressed up..
handsome?
Don't forget to spot his fake hair

Jin zhu..
have been partner with her for the year 4

FATSO

jeremy

JJ and penguin

JJ and me

MY FAVOURITE TEACHER MRS YEO

pampam

dearest

JUNNI

soon yi

FAT

Wei san

Pau

Jiayan

cai yun

falin

tikah

wen jie

zhen yang

yeok rui

fah fah

darling

dinah

shirley

awi?

khairil

gab

YH

J square

YH

FOUR

Joshua

U SOAP

Christ...our great monitresss

pampam

Prom queennn and sharina

3 years

marc

Jy and i

Weng Tat

Sharil

Auntie Jas

boonboon

BEST FRIEND FOREVER

BSBF BSGF

My rival..chey...
Sahanna

SHI TING

LI MIN

KULBIR

PEGPEG

NATS

HY

CARZ NUER

CHUBBB

AMINAH!!

YEAH

ZHU ZHU

SHEALIE-HANGU

JUNNY

DADDY

MUMMIE

ONE FAMILY

US

1111

ICE MANGO
IT LOOKS DAMN NICE
BUT SADLY..
I DIDNT FINISHED IT..AHHAHAHAH
WAD A WASTE OF FOOD

MX WILL ROCK ON~

4C

2008-11-14T23:06:00.001+08:00

HERE IS THE WEBSITE FOR THE GRAD NIGHT PHOTOS I TOOK!
HAHA
ENJOY~
AND REMEMBER TO ADMIRE MY PRETTY FACE!!!^^
JUST KIDDING=)
http://s99.photobucket.com/albums/l294/fujisaki23/GRADDY%20NITE/

2008-11-13T01:07:00.021+08:00

MY JOURNEY OF SECONDARY SCHOOL BEGINST^T

Guess this is the first photo i took with my darling..
She is dinah illiyana...
Since sec2..we had been hanging out today very often...
She's really my best listener...
i love hugging her, kissing her and telling or listening to each other troubles..
Dinah...i will miss u!!<3

i didnt know i have such big and round eyes...
Wen jie once said it looks like fish eyes..LOL
this is the sec one year..
When i made friends with wen jie, wei xiang and alvin..
They are great pple!~

first year to send kor kor kin pong to England..
held a party at popo's condo...
ME and sis wore lolita...(for the first time)

My creation for art club poster that year..

guess this is the year of sec 3 ..
when mx came to my house to play mah jiong..
i really miss those days..^^

A train trip to remember si hua...HAHA...
Qx will be killing me if she see this!!!XD

PSL ...Great to be one...and enjoy teaching kids..
they were wonderful!!!1B rocks on!!!
I will alwys remember u all..
Work hard!

okky chan...my official mei mei...
though she had changed school ..
i still miss her pestering me around...
^^
she's a really cute jap gurl!

the first big piece i done in my life...
Of coz with the help from my papa!=)
this was done with dinah, shu yi, dzul, danial,leslie and me!
It was framed up and used to be hung at the wall outside school..
after we moved...it is no where to be found..haha

MY very first outing with pauline!!
that was the time when my aunt finally allows me to go out with firends...
^^
we had a great time...
with nathan and danial following us..
ahha

prize ceremony for a drawing for chinatown!

Teacher's day...my best friend>ming min and Swe lwin(once my first love)
We still keep in contact...
they were just great people in my life!

first time recieving valentine gift...from si hen...thanks..

the crown was from wen wen

Mx going to central and mess with the arcade there..!!hahah...
the cheat money machine!

with jie jie...

sad that she is not with me here anymore...
I do really missed her..
she was the one who guide me..
fight with me...
play with me..
and my life will sucks like hell without her?

burthday gurl that year

mama bought a pretty cake for mee

a schoe i designed for sec 3 camp use

Went to help out in the kindergarden of my mom's...
from then...
I m crazily in love with kids...
^^
i misss them so much...

abi and me

mama and i

couples of the year!(abi and ken)

brother and i...

Japan trip...
Elena...she gonna to be my best friend in macao then!XD

SEC 3 Teacher's day celebration...
I planned it..
and it turned out to be so successful...
of course not without 3c's cooporation...
that was the time we were so united..

MUmmie TAN and DAddy TAN

with pam...at the army open house!

SEc 3 camp...wei qing and yi en

Kor kor...<3

MAO XIAN!!!!!
Day at ngee ann open house

MX balloon!

FISH AND CHIP!

KBOX celebrating hui yee's burthday...
i hadt been so happy before in my life...
Without them...
life is without colours..!

being part of SG...haha...
PR !

A relationship with the maths genius jy..
after being one -sided love to my...turning fruitless
So went on with jy...
he was a nice guy...
^^
we are still friends..
i had the best present from him..
drawings and keroros!
thank you for being part of my life...

he made this! though it was my intro of website

wedding...was a boring one...

papa the photographer...

cool right

east coast trip...
though i have unhappy memories of that trip..
but thanks 4C for contributing and i am sure we all had a great time?
Mr tan recieved his best present...
Two G200 new shirts to replace his old ones...
And a flower neckie...
And pizza for that day!

My great instrutor!MR tan

my art piece for exhibition...

KERORO...my favour for it...haven DIE!!
hahaha....i just love them!

ME and midore

nice numbers

him and i

Outing with dummy...went to watch NArnia?

mao xian...
see...i love u all so much!AHHA

playing puzzle with nathan!!

outing with wenwen

nicest clouds of the year

J square and JIA YAN!!!

ah gong and ah po! so sweet

My bros

HEes....back board desgin competition

sendding kor kor off to sydney

i cried that day...
T^T
coz i really don't bear to see him go..

egg face

surprise visit to Qx house for her burthday

heeeheeee...CRazy mx

^^CCA open house

RIKLAKUMMA

MX

puppet mx

洗香
and elaine's celebration!

nathan sucks...haha

my best friend...RURU

BABIES...AWwwww so cute

WWEN WWEN...best friend for life...
whenever i got xin shi..
he will alwys be there for me..
thanks wenwen...
FIVE years of friendship^^

well...
hope this will last..
dummy!^^
played a really huge part in my life...

the senior PSL~

AND HERE
MAO XIAN
WE WILL ROCK ON...
I HOPE WE WILL STILL KEEP IN CONTACT NO MATTER WHAT...
WE ARE JUST ONE BIG FAMILY..
HOPE U ALL WILL RMB ALL THE GOOD MEMORIES WE HAVE!!!!

AND MY JOURNEY IS ENDING TODAY WITH THE GRAD NITE..
^^

PEOPLE...
I WILL MISS U ALL

2008-11-11T06:40:00.000+08:00

I'd deleted the previous post...
main reason...
It's disturbing to see that face whenever i clicked into my blog..
Guess it's disturbing to my friends who detested the someone too..haha

2008-11-09T18:14:00.002+08:00

Yawn*
6 days passed...
TUESDAY & WEDNESDAY will be The Secondary Fours Last papers...
Hope everyone did their best and didn't regret for not working hard for this major examination..
It's our last few papers..!
MUST JIA YOU, Okay?
ha ha...

Just these 6 days...
Dummy and i went through a lot of fights..
I guess most probably...
I was the one who didn't want to stop the fight..
And, eventually....
escalated it to another level...
Sometimes, i find myself very evil...
Didn't care about his feelings...
Seriously..i don't know what i really want and our unhappiness had obstructed almost all the time we could spend together...
Somehow...
i am just sick and tired of him...
But what to do...i love him...
Come to think about it...
throughout these six days...he had been trying very hard to please me..
other than the times when we started to fight..
haix...think i am giving him too much pain and pressure...
I am such a bad girl friend huh?

I wanted to end our relationship ..
Mainly because i promised my aunt that i will end all these after my O Level...
And, secondly...
i wanted to end because...
somehow recently...all the bad memories had overwhelmed my brain...
Sometimes...little things he did...it irritates me...
May be that's his character...
i think i also cannot do anything to change...
i felt bad that i didnt give him a chance to show me that he can change..
i felt guilty over that i contradicts myself that i wanted to know him more but i didnt gave myself a chance to do that...
haix...
Guess i had hurt him very deep...
selfish me...=)

haiya...
i really don't know what to do le...
It's like...
really...
headache...
T^T

2008-11-05T23:17:00.029+08:00

SHOPPING WITH AH SO
06'11'08( third day of holiday)
went out with hui yee...
She accompanied me to buy lace for my ribbon...
Later, we went to search for cotton for her present...
Walked around chinatown and did alot of stupid stuff together...
We competed over who's the fastest to walk down the stairs of the MRT station
and more lame stuff we did...hees..
we were broked after that shopping..
she bought a dress and other stuff..
while i bought a pair of heels and elaine's present^^

U-long that cost $2.80...we got cheated..outside sell 90cents without ice lo..

HERs...

MINEs'

peg's favourite hand sign

hahah...like dumb only

my stupid face...o.o

she said this pic looks like her sis
LOL....

fine..intro food bah...i hungry alrd..

CHA CHA!!!big bowl!!!MINI=medium!!haha

peace!!! With my fake smile..

look at the scenery..nice mah?
i think i prettier..ahha

DENG DENG!!

WEET

=E

XDD

XD

here goes the fun part...we are like to mad women taking photos along an escalator...
waiting for pple to clear off the track and take millions of pictures..
of course the blurred and unglam photos are deleted..
now we have the best of out all..hahahahah

night view after we said our good byes..^^

LASTLY...I THINK I M IN LOVE WITH THESE

OUTING WITH QX
5'11'08

OLEVEL PERIOD!
MUGGING HARD!!!AHHAHAHA

looked...the god doesnt seemed to be please with us studying too much..ahha

pretty clouds...it was before the dark gloomy clouds flew by

Like mad...Singaporeans...
still..that afraid to lose?

many many pple waiting for the 'sale' of seats in the lib

looking up into the rainny sky through lib window

nice droplets

well...QX is obsessed with the mushroom head gurl..ahhaha

JASMINE TEA!

my daughter in law

VODA VODA helped me to survive without illness the entire olevel period..
had been drrinking tonnes of water per day

they came to visit me!!!

i love nuers!

hees...aint they just so cute?

bought new perfume...hahahah..
nice smell

i miss the time i spent with MX

over stressed face

mad face

haha...smiley face!=)

dying face...after studying till 2 plus

LOOK!!!this bug had scared the hell out of me!!!RAR

seee!!!!!!it's a praying blah blah blah(dont know the name lah)

bear bear bear from australia..korkor gave de?

T^T drop the second hand liao...so sad...
it's SUPER LOVERS LEI
EX u noe
haix..

MOONMOON

obviously..it's brown..jealous?

mama burthday on 20'10'08
never really celebrate...
as we were having o's

nice?
ahha

OLD PICTURES

TEMPLE OUTING!~

2008-10-30T06:31:00.002+08:00

The Show Is Ending Soon...
Well...
Afterall...
It wasn't that awesome i thought it will be...
It turned out to be another disapointment....

Can say i didnt regret watching it....
But i certainly felt upset over the ending...

Even then...
I guess...
It's almost time to wrap up the show...
Thanks Crew

This round..
I am determined

无题-

2008-10-26T22:18:00.007+08:00

无题-

假如....
有一天,我们彼此都不相识....
我和你的生命里都没有了对方...
是否, 大家会过得好一点呢?

如果....
就这么有一天,
我从你的生命里消失...
你是否会想念我呢?
也许, 我只不过是你的生命中...
占着微不足道的地位...

是玩具吗?

是灰尘吗?

一张便利贴?

还是....

负担...?

就因为你曾经对我许过诺言...
你就必须尊守吗?
那么,
我已成了你的约束了吗?

还是,
爱我...
已经不再是一开始的单纯...

一切都变了吗?
怎么变得我们都不再认识彼此了..
怎么感到如此地陌生, 如此的彷徨....

可能, 我们大家都
太无知,
太天真,
太幼稚,
一点儿也不成熟...

现在,
相爱的原因是什么?
我也看不清了...
每当想起你,
我的心就只感觉到一阵阵的刺痛..
对这个痛处却做不出解论...
不是因为伤痛..
也不是不安...
只是有一丝失落既一丝失望...

不知..
是对自己的责备...
还是...
对一切的事情都麻木了...

是什么...
我自己也不知道了...

也许,
这一切都是我的错...

有时,
回头一看...
虽然不曾后悔什么....

但却怀念当初的傻事...
不想忘记那样的他...
更不想逼自己记得他的不好...
我希望只
记得你的好...
记得我们一切美好的回忆....

(写到此时, 我才想起..
他一整天都没转简讯给我..)

我真的能活在没有他的世界吗?
他呢?

身为一个女朋友,
人家生日...
有庆祝派对...
却不能陪在他身边和他庆生....
人家的妈妈却骂他笨...
选这种什么都不行的女友...

昨天,
在自己最不开心的时侯...
却被人说自己常常不懂得控制自己的情感和情绪.....
不知怎么的, 心又次碎了...
是自己经不起别人的批评,
还是只是心里一团糟?

爱一个人一辈子...
我不会...
但, 要我真心爱一个人...
我能做到...
只是...
我们道底还要再经历多少风风雨雨呢?

什么是真爱..?
是拥有了对方...
就等于爱了吗?
是这样吗?

拥有...
就是一切吗?

那么...
为什么...
我们都拥有了
却不曾快乐?

2008-10-26T15:32:00.001+08:00

我不想忘记你 - Claire
我不想忘记你

我在向前走却像在退后
我在用想念狂欢寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄

我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

一个人不懂什么是拥有
两个人不懂怎么把握
越在乎就越脆弱
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄

我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

2008-10-23T22:32:00.002+08:00

FIVE MORE EXAM DAYS LEFT
&
ELEVEN MORE DAYS TO LIBERTY( not counting the MCQ on 11 of nov )

GUYS GOOD LUCK AND JIA YOU!!

recently....
haix....
also don't know how to type them in words
they just stuck there in my throat...
Rarrr

just...something unpleasant happened...
Think i am really sick and tired of everything...
I don't know..
it feels just so weird...
It's like...
you don't want to do this...
But you are doing it unknowingly...
hurting lots of feelings..
haix...
i really don't know how to cope this..
when i am just trying to be ignorant to everything...
i am sorry people!

2008-10-19T01:27:00.002+08:00

hey people...
After few weeks of under the stress of this monster "O Level"...
I decided just come to blog...
And, may be just write some crap...
It's 1.29 am now...
Basically...i am still quite awake...
Probably too stressed up, knowing that the next day will be O Level...
Even though the actual O Level started long ago...
With the hilarious Oral Exam, Crazy Chinese papers and the practical...
Next week will be the beginning of hell...
I hope it will be over with a blink of my eyes...
And, it will...^^

Reasons to this sleepless night...
Firstly.. got to blame myself for drinking too must green tea...
Not those packet or bottle green tea...
but those traditional tea packet...
drink about 1.5 litres of it...
and i am still drinking it now...
Secondly..
it's just some stuff clog up my head...
Not really a fight with dummy...
But, something that we two couldn't even explain..
FEELINGS..

Ah~
before that...
i have to apologize to Everyone, especially to 4A's people...
for those who overheard me in the library last week...
i am sorry to upset you people...
i had reacted too exaggerated...
over the sitting arrangement of the grad night...
i was kinda crazy that day...
but if you all insisted to sit as a class...
i think i should respect you all...
^^
sorry for making such a big fuss out of it...
hope you all can forgive
=)

alright...
back to the feelings part...
just one question...
:"Have you guys ever felt that somehow...
you just don't suit your partner anymore?"

Well...I am not indicating that i want to end everything...
Just that...

if your partner said that he or she doesn't want to continue talking about his or hers feelings towards something he or she may be unhappy about...
thinking that it will be another start of an argument...
Does that mean that your partner is sick of talking to you?
Or
He or she is just tired?
Or
He or she is just sick of arguing with you?

To me...
It implies me that...
I am irritating him or her...
And...he or she felt tired of the relationship even though he or she still loves you...
That means...
he or she just think that he or she just cannot find a place to ventilate his or hers feelings...
At that moment...
Does that mean that he or she will go out and search for another one where by the another one can give him or her his or hers comfort and console?

Is that what we always seen in the show...
when a husband felt sick of quarrelling with the wife...
Next...
he just went out of house and to some drinking pub...
then... theoretically...
a girl will "accidentally" pop into him...
and may be just like this...
the marriage will be ending at the moment when the girl starts to talk and the guy starts to listen and sink in...?

What if ...
just a short period of time...
your partner just said he or she is just tired of talking to you...
Does that mean that after one year...two...three..or even ten years down the road...
He or she...
Will just stop talking to you...
because of one reason:"I am tired?"

I am not saying that this will happen to me or
definitely occur in the future...
but just some assumptions in my mind..

what if after years...
you find out that the partner you have been loving...
Is just not the right one..
where by you find that both of yours character is like hell and heaven?
And, you had already made so many promises to him or her..
In addition...you just loved him or her so much you don't want to hurt him or hers feeling..
Does that drive you crazy?

I guess it will?

What will happen when wife and husband just stopped speaking out their feelings?

FEELINGS...
Ain't it important in a relationship or even marriage??

No feelings , No talk?
it's everything just ending like this?

I hadn't give up so far...
what about you?

Sometimes..
i felt that relationship restricted a lot of things..
but there's gain and lost..
the world is fair...
^^

I just wish i can be who i am...
And not who people wished to be..
I am not a doll after all...
I am Hang U the great!

2008-10-13T09:01:00.002+08:00

Thanks everyone who cared for me...
Especially my best friends, nuers and friends from anywhere...
I thank you all for sending in your regards....
I will put all these aside first and concentrate on my O Level...
^^

basically...
the previous previous post....
Was on how i was unhappy about the way my family was brought up...
But till yesterday....i have another thought...

My aunt talked to me on Sat...
Just then...i found out she purposely ignored me so that i can feel the pain she was experiencing..
She wanted me to learn the importance of family love
and the world is not only left with M.Y's love towards me...
Yes, i agreed with her finally...
That it was a torture to live without family..
Especially when i am a girl who needs alot of attention, love and care...
Now that they stopped giving me the care...
it's really suffocating me...
Later, she told me that she had her annual body scan...
the report said that she had this white patch near the heart portion...
it could be water, fats or breast cancer....
I was taken aback by this news....
Couldnt believe what i just heard....
she also mentioned that she want to tell me all she needs to tell me...
so that when the report comes out on monday...if happen to be unhopeful...
she wounldnt have to worry about telling me the stuff...
the stuff simply she just want me to concentrate on studies first...
and obviously don't want me get into any relationship ...
according to her...my parents intended to send me back to hong kong to study..
Where i can stay far away...a three hours flight away... from M.Y
my aunt told them it's not the guy's problem..
even if i stay in HK, i will still get a bf if i doesn't know how to think mature...
I guess at this point...they were all upset over what i did...
probably still couldnt believe i will...

Afterall....
i am still stuck at the same spot...
Between family and love...
my love...
now is so worried that he will spoil my family and eventually tarnish my future...
he's now keeping everything to himself..
Not letting me interfere...giving reason that i had worried enough...
i hate it when he start to blame himself..
but he seemed to be the stubborn one who never listen to me either..
though he always lament that i was the dumb and stubborn one..
I just don't get him...
Why can't we pull this through TOGETHER...
Aint relaitonship is to go through thick and thin TOGETHER?
it's just so tough to be alone...
And, u dummy..
Can u just Listen and Think!

Argh... angry over a dummy who never listen!
(dummy, if u are reading this....please...
don't think about us anymore...
if you feel burden...i shall leave u alone...
so you can concentrate on studies...
if i am such a burden to u...
i think...i must well disappear..>:\ )

Back to the topic...
my aunt had changed back to her ownself...
just like last time...
but i still couldnt accept the fact she is treating me good again...
it's kinda unbelievable and may be i m afraid to lose it again...

No matter what...
i am going to work hard for O's and all these
i need more time to settle after that...

Jiayou pple!!!^^
it's your last lap!

2008-10-08T23:47:00.001+08:00

QIAO XIN IS BANANA!!!!HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHA

THANKS PEOPLE!!!

^^

2008-10-08T00:04:00.004+08:00

though i didn't want to explain or elaborate on this matter...
but i seriously feel that i should just voice them out here..
since no one at home is going to listen to me...

Well...
how to begin this long and draggy story....

erm...
Let's jump to the point then...

My aunt or rather...the whole entire family knew about my relationship with M.Y...
And, obviously...they don't belong to the group of supportive parents...
And, true enough...they opposed everything that is related to this relationship...

I am utter sorry for making them so upset and especially broke my aunt's heart twice where by now i have no ways to glue the broken pieces back one whole...
i have no idea how angry my parents were or to what extend they will do to just make me regret of what i did...
As my aunt once told me...
if she ever finds out again...
she will send me back to Macao which means that i will be destroying my own future with my bare hands...
despite her warnings...
i still continued my relationship...
not that i don't fear the consequences...
but just that i should at least deserve a chance to live up to my own interest...

i cannot 100% say that i didn't betray their teachings and rules...
but i know i had not been letting them disappoint for the past 8 years i had studied in Singapore...
Maintaining my studies and at the same time...
fulfilling their wishes or rather they would say it's for my future...
though i admit that i have been slacking quite a lot this year...
but i can say that i had never gave up on my studies...
And... i am trying my very best...
i think with this...i deserve some freedom of my own?

my parents and close relative are very sensitive to having a relationship at my age (0-17 and above)...
they are just like any other parents...
may be next time when i grew up to be a parents...
i will feel the same way as them...
they fear i will get cheated, afraid that i will get pregnant at young, frightened that i will neglect my studies..and may be more other bad impacts from relationships....
All that they heard from and thought of...

No doubts...i cannot deny the fact that this relationship have affected me more or less...
either adversely or positively...
i think it's both...
but i don't really recall much bad things i did with MY
at most lying to my parents..which is already the worst to them i guess...
and frankly speaking...the worse for me too...
it had been a hard time for both parties where by they worried and get paranoid easily...
while i am trying to hide well so that they wont find out and i will hurt them once more...
they actually think that i don't even care and love them for which they see i lied to them twice...
in fact...i think they should know this...
if i don't care and love for them...
i would have openly stead with M.Y and even heck care of everything....
however...they seemed to ignore that, probably blinded by all the bad deeds i did....

Now...
i broke the trust with them....
i shall not elaborate on the part and tiny little things in between..
where by i suggested a break up with M.Y
and i cried over and over again...
getting emotionally choked up...
streaming through shopping malls like ghost...
studying alone at mac ...
crying in bus attracting unnecessary attention...
soaking my pillows at night...
staring into the phone where by he wont message anymore...
clearing the inbox which i think it's emptied anyway...
put all the memories in folders and boxes...
so that i will never forget them...
thinking too much on my own...
suspecting all the promises will be gone in that second..
and everyone else is leaving me...
thoughts like the whole is collapsing...
walk with my head pointing downwards and eyes focusing on the floor
as if there will be some kind people dropping their money for me to pick up...
ridiculously drawing craps on worksheets and crying over sad songs...

I'm really going crazy that day...
guess it was the worst day of my life so far..

how can a person's life be so pathetic and upset...?

i will tell u how..
when your parents start to turn cold to u
when your love ones, in my case , my aunt, who took care of me for 9 years...
start to ignore you and may be at times give attitude to you...
and even now and then...you are still a sting in her heart where by she cannot forget what you did to her...
she forgets everything good thing about you because all the good memories are polluted by just the one thing u committed wrongly...
Worse still...is when she starts to behaving strangely...
being nice to you for one second
and , the other...
she turns her face 360 degrees and start to dig out all the negative points of u...
have you all ever tried that your mom or dad want to disown you?

OK...i tried that...
my mom once said she wants to give me away to my aunt...
sounds like she's disowning me...
but luckily...it didn't happen this round...

but, nonetheless...
just imagine my mom decided that she had been wasting money on a shit like me(to them)
and she decided to cut all the money that are used for my education...
may be to the extend to throw me out of house...
given that my aunt hates me so much now...
i think i will be homeless....

think about that...
perhaps that's the worse thing in your life...

but now.....
i am experiencing the worst of the worst...
where by days you stayed at home...
my aunt started to talk about it again and nagged again...
and recite the whole story to you
may be this is done to torment me or perhaps.....
to make me feel more guilty....
next....
you felt so lonely at home...
because she wont talk a single thing...
or may be because i didn't want to talk..
as i cannot estimate her temper at any moment...
she could be thinking and suspecting at that moment and want to be harsh with me...
or she could be thinking of how to forgive me( which i think it's very hard for this to happen as my reputation in their heart is shattered)
at times....
you just find yourself so tiny and negligible that you felt that there's not a place for you in this house...
leading that...
i find myself being watched and aimed all the time whatever i want to do..
i felt that millions of eyes are watching me..probably the god and my own wild imaginations..
these eyes don't seemed to be friendly but hostile...
i see the blame , anger, disappointment, unreliability and even revenge in these eyes...
they are there to make sure I FEEL GUILTY ENOUGH

my aunt told me not to suicide for any guys if they happened to break my heart in the future...
she is telling me all these because she don't trust that i will break up with M.Y and will continue lying to her...she felt that no promises should make this round and i should think on my own...
which true enough...i think and think and think
till i chose the choice they want....
i am always standing in the middle...
trying not to hurt any of them...
now...i see it...
the most painful one is me...
it's no one's fault....
not him
not family
but me....

i started the game playing even though i knew the repercussion of it....
i deserved all these

well....i am serving my sentence now...
whereby it's bloody painful now...
to be sitting on the verge of the cliff...

really want to suicide...
not because of M.y
but i think i gonna to end my life because of being guilty...

i am like a criminal now...
everyone in the family see me as a person with mistakes with a dirt in me...
they recognise me as the person who hurt my family...
they see me as a saint...

i think relationship is not affecting my studies
but the back wash is...(the effects of being discovered and reprimanded for everything you did)
guess wad...
my aunt told me they are not blaming the guy
but me...
the one who cannot think
the one who is stupid enough to start the game...

i don't blame them...
i know it's my fault and i am sorry for all i did...
and...
i think they are unhappy too...
they all go for the same aim...
they want me to be happy and stay away from mistakes and stumbling over obstacles

but to me...
at times...small obstacles in life
get me move on...
get me motivated...

not that i am saying that getting myself pregnant or getting ditch and heart broken or may be slicing my hands are small obstacles...these are huge and serious obstacles...
but i just feel that life will be so bored if one only study and study and get married or rather stead at the age when you get into university....( they suggested that you will see more better guys in uni....and u should only start relationship after u get your job)
Woah...let's count ....
that will be 10 years...
may be even before hitting the number 10...
the earth is gone already...
HAHAHA
with the thinking...
i felt that i had not done anything for me to regret....

may be as they said...
i am too young to think...
and I WILL CONFIRM REGRET IN THE FUTURE....
for not listening to them

well...
may be as they wished...
i will regret one day....

but not now...

=)
sleepy and now i can sleep without worries...
i had all my thoughts out here...
the haze in heart had somehow cleared abit..
probably sooner...
i will see the blue sky again...
may be not the same blue sky....
but better than rainy and cloudy days....

came out with study plan today

EAT SLEEP STUDY!!!

and abit rest time!!!

till.........
11 nov!!!(11/11/08)

LUCKY DAY 1111 someone will be missing me badly that day...

good luck peers!

2008-10-07T18:05:00.004+08:00

To break free and soar into the blue sky..

So what if everything was just an illusion

what if i had never existed...
will the light still shines bright?

my second home?

CAT CAT...he/she ignored me completely...am i that irritating?Awww

LOLIPOP...wad a coool shirt...ONLY the shirt..

Rainny days...please don't bring umbrella...
just dance in the rain then...
so no one sees your tears..LOL

i drank three of them!XD

when studies get bored

GUESS GUESS WHAT THIS!!!!!!

ok...

obviously it's a bird....

but on wad?
guess guess

DADA!!!!

DINOSAUR!!!! RARRRR~~~
hahaha...
i am so lame...^^

tai du!!!

Lastly....

just want to say

GOOD LUCK FOR OLEVEL!!!!

JIA YOU!!!!

well...alot of things happened to me recently...
but i am not going to let it affect me!!!
work hard HANG U!!!

I ROCKS!

2008-10-05T17:55:00.000+08:00

彷徨, 失落

2008-09-26T22:45:00.008+08:00

Some pictures didnt manage to post ...
So....
After sooo long..
HERE are they!^^v
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I miss her

My dearest nuers

During One of the Chemisty tuition...

Boon Heng and his "Guard feeling" friends doing something just so disgusting

GUESS wad it is?

They are picking up all the bugs..(ants that can fly) into this cup of water...
And literally killing them...or rather...tormenting them to death...

Here is the outcome?

gross enough to kill ur appetite for today's dinner?

HAHA

HERE is our GAY partners!!!!

they have a three months baby already...
Don't doubt...
they love each other very much!

My dearest cousin had finally left!
that's my mom beside him!=)

sweets my real mom bought from Japan!

It's really nice...
So sad...cant share with u all...^^

My art preparation work

And yesterday...i just sent my art piece to submission...
I am gonna to miss it sooooo much....

awww....

see you next month!!T^T

A picture grabbed from Junny....
trip to East Coast...Tcher's day celebration

my prelims art P2...hahaa...i simply screwed it up..
got only 68...=)

AND

Last but not least...

I BOUGHT A NEW EARPIECE!~~

Aint it just so beautiful?it's in cubic shape with pink colour coating

Loves!

me and my dummy big spect!

2008-09-24T00:37:00.003+08:00

60 things gals do not know about guys

60 things most girls dont know
Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!(oh yeah..you're not 'popular' if you've slept with more than 6 guys..you're a HOE)

--'Hey, are you busy?' or 'Are you doing something?' ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

--Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

--Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

--Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

--Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

--A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

--Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

--Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

--Guys get jealous easily.

--Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

--Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

--Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

--Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

--Girls are guys' weaknesses.

--Guys are very open about themselves.

--It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

--Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

--If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

--A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

--Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

--Guys will brag about anything.

--Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

--No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

--Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

--Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

--Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

--Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

--Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

--Try to be as straightforward as possible.

--If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

--If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

--When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

--When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.'

--Guys don't really have final decisions.

--If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

--If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

--When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

--When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

--Guys like femininity not feebleness.

--Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

--Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

--Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

--Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

--Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

--If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

--Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

--A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

--No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

--Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

--We don't like girls who are too skinny.

--We love it when girls talk about there boobs.

--Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy ...like wheather it's a one time deal or not ....

--Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...

--When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

--Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..

--Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...

--Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.

--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

CREDITS TO AH JING^^

2008-09-23T22:45:00.002+08:00

Hey readers...

Thanks for all of your utmost care...

I am alright now...

It was just a little obstacle i faced...

I still believe in Love...

Which i never thought of giving up...

Everyone deserves a second chance...

And....

I am opening my heart once more...

This round...

If it breaks again...

I guess...

Is time for my to close doors to Love..

Just one doubt: Do guys know what to do to pay back when he made the girl angry or upset?

2008-09-21T19:11:00.003+08:00

L.O.V.E

if you search it in dictionary...
it should mean something like this:
"Love represents a range of emotions and experiences related to the senses of affection. The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure to intense interpersonal attraction. This diversity of meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states."

So...what does Love really means?
I find Love being a big word to me now...
If it is so easily defined by dictionary...
Why would i still be staring at the word over and over again...
Still bewildered and uncertain the real meaning of Love?
If that is the meaning of Love...
Why do many people still blindly falling in Love, where by, Love is just a range of emotions?

What's so great about Love...?
What's so powerful about Love...?

Does a promise of Loving you forever, means a real forever?
What if the promise broke?
What's the price behind it?
Or nowadays people are gradually moving on when promises are broke...?

In a relationship...
there were times that are good and bad?
If so...
when it's bad..Do people just forget everything that is good?
And
when it's good...Do people just forget everything that WAS bad?

Is that how Love goes about?
I pondered...
I wondered...

So Love...
Don't Love just have formula?
I prefer learning through steps and graphs?

Why wouldn't a guy slowed down and pace with u simultaneously?
Why wouldn't a guy just think before he does anything, taking your feelings into serious consideration?
Why did god just made women having to be more emotional?
Why did women's heart just ache whenever she tries to forgive the guys?
Why cant the guy just play more smart, learning that it will hurt someone so deeply, then what for commit it?
For all the WHYs...
How come...
i still don't get any answers?

Does guy's dignity really that important?
Love doesn't worth a guy placing their utmost important pride in second and putting Love in the first place? Does having "face" is more significant than losing your girl?
You will be surprised there are guys out there, thinks that losing a girl is worth keeping his pride and dignity...

How does it feel like when you got stabbed thousand of times
and got a sincerely apology...

What are you supposed to response with that broken heart?
Are you supposed to glued back all the pieces..
and pretend nothing had happened?
And just let your vulnerable heart shattered again?
Or is it time to just let it the last time your heart gonna to take?

Why is it so many questions in my head?
Why is it no answers to all that?

Does this goes same to every single couples?
Does forgiveness is just a granting of another chance of letting your partner hurting u once more?

I had never know Love can kills one's appetite of the day..

i am freaking not hungry!
Great...i can slim down!^^

2008-09-21T00:32:00.017+08:00

NO POST FOR TODAY

seriously...
i don't know what to say...
it had struck me enough to break down the whole night..
i had never thought that one can be just so heart broken because she was not trusted...

i risked my bond with my family...
just to be with u....
And....
Ain't that showed how much i love you?
Ain't you suppose to be grateful and satisfied?
Ain't you supposed to take my feelings into considerations?
Ain't you just show some respect?
Can't you just pampered me?
Can't you just stop being so sensitive?
Can't you just stop being so stingy?
Why ?
I just don't get it...?
i gave up lots of things to be with u....
and almost gave u everything u need?
Why?
Just why?
u still couldn't trust me?

Ain't trust is the most important component?

Trust.....

it's heartbreaking enough...

Trust...

why do i venerate it?

WORDS MEANT NOTHING WHEN IT'S TRANSPARENT...
BUT...
WHEN YOU UNDERSTAND THEM....
IT HURTS HELL LOT

And four months turned out to be such a calamity
When my effort and hard work were not acknowledge...
And for the four months....
i did not gain any trust...
And for the past four months....
i had been giving in so many, but how come no one is appreciating?
And that four months
is all that's enough to break my heart...
These four months.......
I am proved to be a girl who gave no secure....

Woah....
i am so judged..

I don't need a cure ....
All that i need...
Is just a big bandage to fasten my broken pieces back...

I need time....
I need to breathe....
I need to heal....

i wondered how many more times...
my heart can restand the pain again and again?
Will forgive and forget just faded the pain off?

2008-09-19T11:13:00.001+08:00

2008-09-17T19:58:00.002+08:00

17 Sep 2008

Prelims is going to be over within the next 24 hours...
Oh my god...
Ain't that relieving and stressful at the same time?

O Level is coming round the corner...?
Less than a month...
I am going to sit for my secondary school major examination?
This is like so hilarious or rather ridiculous?
I had already spent THREE going to Four years in secondary school?
And, the thing is i don't realize the time flying pass....
haha....

I think i got to brush up on my English...
I simply think my English cannot make it...
I am running out of vocabulary...
And i hates it when i cannot find another word to replace another...
So, guess i will have to start finding my way back into the story book...
And , may be begin to give in my best shot for O Level....
Hopefully, i can get at least a B for my English and May be an A for my humans...
^^

Hey guys...
just tell you all something...
I'm really happy now...
As in with my life...
With my Dummy...
Every Little Things counts...
And, i can see that there's a change...
I feel it...^^
Thanks for being there for me whenever i need it...
Seriously....
I'm just....
hees....

Grateful to have u

2008-09-13T23:30:00.023+08:00

Sun Set...beautiful right? Outrageous

i took this on the actual day of moon cake fest... nice?haha...
it's just outside my window...haha..round round de...
i wonder if can eat anot...XD

heehee...that's a long time since i played this

my creation!!^^

waxs can make art pieces!!

blending the colours..ahha

chow pam...^^

Us with the ugly face...^^

SHI TING..hahah..miss her laughters

that "bitch", jus kidding...Lynn..^^

yeah!MX founder rocks

christ...

haha.....the candles shone bright..not i too white=)

ok...the focus is not on me...they wanted to focus.ahah
junny....aka wen zi..ahaha

she was the camera woman that day...thanks for bringing the cam^^
pamela and junny

i teach them how to pose de..! Chey

look at this take one...and look at take two..spot the diff

this pam go blow my hair!!!Now got gap liao!!

"Quinn and i"HAHA

Aint it just so fun to be a kid?

candid i guess?

look at lynn's horrified face...so funny

me and my sparklers

junny and her doremon lantern

Quinn and her so called "star" shape sparklers...
which didnt turned out to be any stars

hhahaha...shi tings face?

"candid"by junny

UP NEXT!!!
OUR CONTINUOUS GRP PHOTOS!!

while they went to buy drinks...
pam , junny and i went mad!

back they were.....one more shot!

Lastly....

Dummmy, i love u!<3

my kor's beautiful watch...i stole it!!!WAHAHHAHA

my dumb spec which many commented that it's ugly

stole kor's green headset...heehee

anyway....
i still love this spec...it's nice!

2008-09-11T23:37:00.002+08:00

2008-09-10T16:39:00.002+08:00

Haha...
Hey people...
Long time didnt blog...
Currently at home, sitting beside me is someone very special...
And she is.....
MY NUER HUI JIA
this afternoon...
she decided to come to home house and study....
On the appearance...
yes..she is coming to my house to study...
haha...but i guess sooner...we will be playing and enjoying ourselves...
i had circled several questions for her to do...
hopefully can help her pull up her standard through practices...
Actually...
she's very clever and intelligent...
Just that never make good use of the ability...
must put enforcement on her liao...
MAKE HER STUDY!!!

I simply just in love with the two kids i have now...
JIA YI & HUI JIA & DUMMY are Loved!

Kay kay...
people taking BIOLOGY paper...
JIAYOU!!!!
bio is the toughest subject i guess...
hahahah

MATHS paper 1 tomorrow
heard that it's easy

so GODD LUCK PEERS!!!!!

=)

2008-09-05T19:44:00.004+08:00

Sometimes...
It set me off thinking...
thinking about what's all happening now is true...

Sometimes...
i wondered...
if i had done the right thing....

And at times...
i feared...
what if one day.....
you will do the same thing to me...?

By then...
Can i still ~~love~~ you?

Can i still trust you?

Can i stand up once more..
As strong and persevere as ~~her~~?

Can i?

Do guys get over one relationship just over a week?
Why cant god just make women less-emotional?

We are being too selfish?
We ignored ~~her~~ feelings ?
~~She~~ was going through that torturous process...
when we are having joy and fun...

i had you...

where as...
~~She~~ had nothing when you just walked out...
who will be there to support ~~her~~?
who was there for ~~her~~?

I don't get why...
why cant...
Just feel for ~~her~~?
Just empathize ~~her~~?
Just give ~~her~~ sense of relief?

It's painful to learn about ~~her~~ agony...
It's confusing...
perplexed...
bewildered...

i am frightened...
what if...
just one fine day...
you decided that we don't suit anymore...
and we should put an end to all these...
what am i supposed to do?
who will be there to stand by me...?

promises made...
didn't promises to her kept ~~her~~ sank more into that relationship that ~~she~~ know little that it will end too?
didn't promises broke when you just left ~~her~~ because you don't want to continue anymore?
Can promises just secure everything?
Can promises just calm one's flickering heart?

Do everything just come with a price?

My heart is whelmed with questions...
Is hard for ~~her~~ to get over everything?
Did i just did something very wrong?
Was that a right thing to do just to get my happiness and slaughtered ~~hers~~?

who's at fault?

Well, i don't know.....

* There was a time when i wondered....
how come man are made to feel and love?*

this post....
was simply...
just how i felt when i read through ~~her~~ blog...
and when i learnt about ~~their~~ story...
That's when i realized ......
how selfish we were...
how oblivious we were to others...
how people got hurt just because we got our happiness..

i hope...
i pray...
i dream...
keep our promises?
don't break them like you broke ~~hers~~?

i don't wish to end up with a shattered heart?

2008-09-01T22:32:00.004+08:00

2008-08-28T23:52:00.018+08:00

Long missed blue sky!~

HAPPY BELATED TO MY SISTER!~

HER SPECIAL CAKE!~

HER GON FACE~

Mami helping her to make a wish!!!
wishing that she's prettier and weathier

YEA!!!sing that dumb song baby!

She seems happy!

they are gaying? or les-ing?

her dumb face...
kor...
thanks for being there whenever i need u...
^^
whenever i am down...
you'll always call me and talked to me...
i appreciated all the things u did...
and thanks for being so caring...
ahhaha..
sister forever!!!~
next year...
when you are gone...
hope u still will contact me through email and msn...
i will definitely miss u!!!!
lastly......
HAPPY 19 BIRTHDAY!!!
10 rocks...(you know what i mean)
i enjoyed my 9 years of life in singapore with you...
you totally rock~
although u are stubborn at ALL times..^^

a cool video on him...guys...enjoy!

UP NEXT!!!!!
GRADUATION CELEBRATION OF YU KAI TUNG(distant cousin)

his girlfriend..pretty?
she's a model!!!~hahahah....

cute cute de her...

his sister...
they look super alike!!!~

just some random photos

BORING LIFE OF MINE

start doodling while i was writing an essay

dang dang!!!!

MAO XIAN ROCKS ON~~
long time never take pictures of mao xian...
miss them soooooo much....
of course i miss the time spent with them...
though now is o level time....
i hope we can stay forever close together!!^^

mao xian with her heart!

like ghost!!!hahahhahhahahhaa

i drew it...

a small kid occupying our place...^^

me of coz

ROAD.....was trying out my camera..
it's spoilt now...got to fix it tml...
with my phone too

pau took

randomness

sebast's art piece...cool~~~

sea of colours

DINAH ILLYANA

please do not misunderstand..we are jsut friends

I LOVE HER~~

CLASS OUTING ON 29 AUG

i rocks

leg leg and u u(dummy, dun be sensitive..it's just photo)=]

my retarded face!
hahsjdhjsahdjkshdjksahdjsa

shealie

mr tan's gon gon face...
reciting his process of wooing ms ang!!hahahahha
cool right?

i asked him that question~~~~~~

woooo.....^^

we are 4C

hey pple...there's more photos..but my camera was down...
so most of the pictures were corrupted...
i will try to retrieve them tml...
so sad...but sorry!!!hahahha

anyway....
that day was realling awesome...
we gave mr tan a real surprise....
dinah and i bought snacks and packed them into small packets...
like giving to primary school students liddat lo...
we spent time on them...
so 4C please appreciate...
every single of us paid $6- for both the pizza and the presents for mrs.tan and tan c^2
it was astounding that mr tan actually fock out $100 dollars for us to buy food...
this eventually subsidize our cost and put more $$ on presents!!!
^^
we got mr tan two G2000 shirt for him...
one blue and one light brown..
we bought dark colours for him..
because we found that he looks better in dark colours..
sadly that he forgotten to wear dark colours when we took our class photos..
ahha...

but yesterday i am sure he was touched..
coz he doesnt know we bought present for him...
and we did not arouse his suspicion on us purchasing pizza not needing to collect money on the spot...dumb him...
but he's the best form teacher we had...
thanks mr tan and mrs tan who was not able to attend our class outingT^T
haha..
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!!!^^
4C rocks on!!!^^

dummy:
seriously...i find u really dummy...
sometimes words can hurt one unintentionally...
could u please just learn to take care of my feelings...
not by saying things too directly...
though beating around the bush is not a good thing sometime...
but at least i will feel better..
no need always so straight forward right?
i sometimes want to share my interest with u..
then u just say dun wan...
very hurt u noe?
if u dunn wan...
just pretend u want lah...
at least i feel better...
i thought being tgt shld be understanding wad each other like and accept them?
or like accept their interest also...?
i never said anything about ur interest
because i respect u...
because i want to accept who u are...
i am accepting whatever u like...
so cant u just accept my character at times?
haix...dunnoe wad to say lah..
was upset when u dun wan to watch the damn movie..
just wanna to share..end up ...
haix....
may be u really dun like...
no choice lah
i am not angry...
just...
^^

2008-08-24T22:46:00.005+08:00