Wednesday, August 23, 2006
" ; Wednesday, August 23, 2006 "
23'08'06
my mother loves mi alot...
and i loves her lots too...
bt between us...there is always a wall...
this wall was built up when my mum l\dots on my little bro...
who always backstab mi n act innocent....
causin my mother w/o findin out who is in wrng...
scolded mi like blood hell...
frm those dae in the childhood....
my communication wif my mom bcame poor...
bt i noe deep in my heart i love her...
jus that she dun understand what i tink and i dun noe hers too..
that tym she was down wif some serious sickness....
i was realli worry...
ya...i did ...bt my bro didnt....
my mom is" blind"...she jus cant c how much i loves her...
and wad the truth side of my bro...
now...wheneva we tok...not exceedin five mins...we quarell...
then...not long ago...she went japn wif my dad...
she bought mi alot of bks on gothic n lolita,my favourite...
my mom's backbone was not gd,bt she insist helpin mi find for hours hours...
haix...can c she cares alot for mi...
bt jus sometyms...we cant communicated...
recently....my aunt told mi that my brother...
realli regretted that he did those things to mi last tym...
and he would like a new start wif mi...
bt i noe...he does...
bt sometimes...he is jus too outcast...none of the siblings likes him....
is jus like a piece of white paper...
if u painted it wif black...
is it possible to paint it back to the pure white at first?
no rite...i tink of this ystrdae nite...may be sometimes i shld jus forgive him...
and loves him more...
but it jus seem so hard and tuff...haix...
bt well...
step by step...hang u can do it...another stone encounterin...
quite a big one...lol...AZA Ganbande
---------hang U--------------------
And, life without DUMMY will be equal to the worst night mare...31'May'08
