Friday, September 29, 2006
" ; Friday, September 29, 2006 "
29'09'06todae...i didnt go to skl....
dun feel like gng to skl...
may be is too stress over those stupid stuff....
haix...yesterdae...sth realli happen and made my life worst...
i saw sth abt him which made mi cried like shit....
now then i know....all along....is my foolish...stupidness...love...
haha....i reached home ystr at 4pm....after i went to see a doctor...
i was sick these few daes...stress up wif some stupid frnship problems....
and i sat at the swing....my mind went blank...and i mumbled to myself....
didnt noe...all along is only mi who attend the love drama...
he didnt even attend...so...single love...hah....
i laughed at myself....for almost three mths...have been liking someone who dun even loves mi...
well...now him found his happiness....shld be glad bah....
happi...??now everione had their happiness...
looking at them...felt so envy....haha...lol...
then i sat ther for 15 mins...eyes filling wif tears...
jus then my sis who i gave 15 miss call to her finally called back...
i dun noe why i whenever i hear her voice...my heart jus feel so pain n
tears will jus roll down...and everyting will jus gets ugly...
i told her i m at the swing and would like her to come down....
i was crying on my own...haix...the pain is so irritatin...
i jus wan to cry them out...omg...i m nuts....
haha...my sis came...and i jus pounced into her hugs...and cried like hell....
she comforted mi...and i told her everyting....
haha....that time...she nearly slapped mi...i tink she wans to....
bcoz...is so different from the hang u she noes....
i kept on crying after june holis....
frnship...love...family....
for everyting...i cried....
but for him...i cried the most...haha...
my heart realli died by then....i couldnt breathe probably when i saw the scene...
haha....so lame n stupid...i took is over...??haha....nah...is over now....
no more childish n day dreaming....
todae...my eyes were so swollen that i didnt wan to go to skl...
is abit weird and too depress....
so...i rather stay at home...hex...and frnship problem....
i dun care anymore....is childish to fight...and i will jus let it be...
but i will continue my life...the life that says:"HANG U ROCKS!!!"
haha...todae...i deleted everyting about him....and...may be that will help to lessen the pain in me...i now i didnt win his heart....so lets jus accept it....
as...is all done....managing and filing all my messy documents....
i think shld pick up my enthusiaium for study....
now...my love is dedicated to studies....
dun think too much liao...hehe....i noe myself the best....
i noe the timing....so i wont waste any more time on useless things...
hang u AZAZA !!!!fight on....hc rox?!! may be
love him........hc....
i wont run away from reality again...
--------------hang u-----------
Thursday, September 28, 2006
" ; Thursday, September 28, 2006 "
28'09'06SPEECHLESS
i have really nothing to say.....
one thing...i wan to clarify....
i m jus going to be who i m....
and i wont change because of childish.....
immature...and ones who doesn't know mi well....
if my sis could actualli live wif mi for the past 6 years...
and plus on...my god bro knows mi so well that he said i change alot...
and that change is not into an "AH LIAN"
i dun c i have any reasons to change.....i mean....no offence....
if i hav a true frns IN CLASS 2A....
i wont be that stupid to go up to my enemy and beg for mercy....
for one thing....is not u change to fit pple's dislikes....
is the ability to accept and forgive and adapt to frns u hav....
if u dun hav that ability...u dun even hav the RIGHT to say mi.....
i have something to say....
DON'T GET THE WRONG SIDE OF HANG U .....
AS I TOLD U BEFORE....
DO NOT CLIMB OVER MY HEAD.....
U WILL REGRET AS YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
" ; Tuesday, September 26, 2006 "
26'09'06
can i jus say something....??
of coz i can ....this is my blog anyway....
but if any of this below information hurts anyone....
i will apologize....
for wad i noe soo far.....
i,HANG U.....
i love to hide things in my heart....
i love appear to be cheerful....
i love to be changing all the time....
i love to win in all competitions.....[well...i noe is true..]
i love to keep all my secrets to myself....
i love to lie sometimes to protect myself....
i love to in a crowded place.....
i love to see pple smile....
i love to be sista listening to others.....
BUT....
now....
i cannot realli hide my feelings....
i m appaering more n more depress....
i cannot lie anymore....
i m left out....
i m hated by pple...
i m being backstabbed....
i m a evil to someone......
so i m just gonna to type all this thing out...
......................and if the someone ever feels guilty on reading this post....
this is wad i wan to say
TO SOMEONE!!!!!!!!!::
here...if u wan to differensiate
backstab and hyprocrite....
here is wad the dictionary said:
hypocrite-someone who pretnends to have certain
beliefs or opinions that they do not really have-used to show disapproval...
backstabbing-the act of secretly doing bad things to someone esle,
especially saying bad things about them,in order to gain an advantage for yourself...
so...if that someone is thinking that i m backstabbing u....
pls look at urself....do u hav any frns lesser..???
no rite....and if i realli backstabbed u.....
u shld be thankful....coz as the dictionary said....
i will do tings which will be that cruel u couldnt stand it....
pls...gurls...!!!!dun take advantages of mi....
i m not that easi to bulli...
and thats wad i gng to say...if u r jeaslous or what shit....
pls shout those unhappiness into my face....
u r so coward n timid....
tat u r a VILLIAN...u do things behind my back....
aha...jus to make mi depress.....and upset....
OH PLS...BITCH!!!!...i dun give a damn to u....
u tink i care....i wont fall into ur trap....
oh ya...u r that backstabber urself....
u won the game....but rmb one thing....
i m not that childish to do the same thing as u....
as it is like lame n shitty bloody....wtf.....
and pls bitch...hav some sense....
i hypocrite u in front of someone....
but i nv betrayed u...but nvm if u did....coz i knew....
i onli have bad opinions about u...but i didnt do bad things to harm u....
did i...??oh may be i did....oh then thats too bad....
jus scram off...i dun give to the damn.....
haha....guilty???i tink u wont...coz u r dumb as donkey....
nvm....sry to be proud....but u r jus small little insects under my leg....
dun get to overboard to my head....
u will regret....get that point rite....
u r jealous....oh then tats ur problem....
as u r not pretty but ugly little thingy....
nvm...i can be as bitchy as u can....
if u think u can trust other pple words of backstabbing....
go ahead...i dun nid u any way....
argh...EWWWW!!!!scam off.......!!!
thanks to u....bITCH!!!!!!!!!!
----------------hang u---------------
Monday, September 25, 2006
" ; Monday, September 25, 2006 "
i m here to post some questions pls ans n tag mi for answers...
haha....by fri the ans will be up....
for entertainment...for relaxation.....
Q1: Try holding your partner’s finger[tell mi which finger she/he chose..
• Thumb ->
• Forefinger ->
• Middle finger ->
• Ring finger ->
• Pinkie ->
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Q: Draw what kind of cake you want to eAT:
Simple cake
OR
Decoration cake
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" ; Monday, September 25, 2006 "
25'09'06
todae...we finished the D&T...
i took them in the class....
haha....thanks to gary for helpping...
haha...todae got back the maths test....
haix....24/25...wtf...jus one more mark....
haix...nvm....will wrok harder next time...
i didnt have time to check back...so i didnt sub the x=4.2 into the equation....
well...nvm...is over liao...jus need to do better in sa2....
i have confident in maths....but i wont give to high hopes...haha
this few daes not enuf slp...slpt late...woke up early...
soo....gt panda eyes liao...
how would i hope those exam daes could pass faster....
i m so excited for holidaes....
ahha...lol.....winter's time...lover....
haha...i love winter...ahah....is cold...n jus imagine u r slpin at nite...
and is so cold n u have thick n warm blankets over u....
wow....i love that feeling...and when u woke up....u jus love to stay in the blanket....
and wouldnt wan to wake up....until the sun bath on ur butt....ahha...
nvm...is all after exam...haha.desire....loll....kk...todae..i will jus stop here....
say bye bye...
BB.....love ya....H.S rocks...H.U rocks....
---------hang u--------
" ; Monday, September 25, 2006 "
25'09'06
exam is next week....
and i tried to study as many as i can...
but i feels numb over studing those subjects...
is like ....i hav the feeling that i dun feel like studying any more.....
is so tired....and all the stuff jus cant go into my brain....
i feel so fed up that those tchr didnt taught well and expect us to score in exam....
i m so stress this few daes....so...if frns out there...
feels that i m giving attitude or wad shit....
pls forgive....exam time...is lidatt....haha....
i became nasty to my family members...even my papa....
i feel bad but i couldnt help it....
haix...sometimes i realli hate myself during exam time....
haix....i feel so coped up wif all the stupid..shitty...common test...
which were all onli given to put weighs on us....
is like those weighs on mi now...
is paralysed...is like numb n i couldnot feel anything....i wanted to take a rest...
but it seems like is too difficult for mi....
aha...nvm...is like tat....i can still bear wif it....
haha...but things weren't so easy in sa2...
so i m panick and started to worry over things....
haha....well...finally gets to post sth....
but may be not so often now...
coz havin exam n i dun have mood to type anything....
ahha...i m jus afraid that i would post that will hurt someone...
ahha...ok....i nid to go study le....ganbande!!!!!!!
AZA AZA ...!!!!fight on.....hang u roCKs!!!!!
-------------------------hang u-----------------------------
Thursday, September 21, 2006
" ; Thursday, September 21, 2006 "
21'09'06one more last thing before i go....
is about him....
haha....CONGRATULATION.......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
hang u success of breakin off that trouble....
haha...now with him...is FRIENDS....
i still talks to him in the way i tok to my frn...
good?!!!!haha...i m soo happi....
finalii....get over it....haha....
thanks for all the frns who supported mi throughout the time....
haha....i had gain lots of things and learnt lots of experience.....
haha...thanks him also....now....everyting is over.....
is so good....we maintained the frnship we had now....
although is not realli close...
but i m satisfy alrd....enuf le....
i cannot be so greedy....haha.....
thanks so much....
haha.....i m free now.....
haha.....friendship...??hhaa.....
i archived it.....
haha....^________________^
--------------hang u-----------------
" ; Thursday, September 21, 2006 "
21'09'06
i was gng to post one before this...
but to some extend...
i couldnt post it up for some purpose...
if for anyone who wans to know wad happen todae....
pls approach mi in msn...i will send u the file...
.haha....is an veri important thing in my life....
bt is dangerous to post up....haha....is a RISK...!!!!!haha....
ok...todae...we had science test.....
so yesterdae night...i was rushing through the study....
.then CME project came into the scene....
meng yang and danial said they will do it....
but then...end up they didnt do....
but can understand la....coz...exam is at the corner of the eye...
and somemore CME is not realli an important subject..
.but that stupid meng yang insist of dng it....
so dan,meng yang,ah qiao and mi....we went online to discuss....
haha....we were havin much fun...
haha...meng yang did all the typing....
and dan did the font and colouring...
and mi...i did the background...haha...simple...easy job....
we had conversation together...and i enjoyed it....
haha...is like so fun and like can feel the teamwork...
haha....but in the end....i no mood to study....
jus browse thru....all those important points...
but all didnt get realli right into my brain...hah...
but luckily...the test was not as difficult as i tot it was....haah...
i tink i could score....haix...heave a sigh of relief....
hah..but on coming maths,chinese,lit test....
haix...realli dun understand why mus they actualli give us test...
when we are alrd gng to have exam...wtf....
we are so stress up man....i tot we shld start revision but not test...
haix...dun noe how those stupid idiotic teacher thinks....
bt well...is fact...and we hav to face it...
haix.....jia you bah....i didnt slp these few daes...
keep on studyin...haix...now gt panda eyes...
dun noe how...not pretty liao....nah..jus kidding...
but realli tired...haha...lol....next next wk is EXAM....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg...is so threatening man.....
i m SCARED!!!!!!
-------------------HANG U----------------------
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
" GET ALL OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!^___________^ ; Tuesday, September 19, 2006 "
IS OVER...........end....haha...19'08'06
ystrdar play com frm 7.30 till 9 sth....
haix...then started to do maths...then revise sci...
haha....ten slept at 1 am...haaha....gd!!!..
tats y todae soo recklessness....T^T...
haha...todae...is a good dae....
marc n mi presented the literature...
and we have full mark....haha....
soo happi...hehe....thanks marc for accompany mi dng it...
haha...we did a great job....
plus usha is nuts to be too nice....haha...
guess wad i mean by IS OVER....end....
hhaa...actaulli...
todae when we were havin art lesson...
and the stupid teacher place mi outside wif those
pple who were in the garden...
my task is to take care of them....lol....
then gary....that idiot....
pleased mi to help him.....
and i did help him...but
he seems like not being appreciated....
my wife dinah was sittin opposite mi....
then HE[if u all still rmb]....
sat besides gary.....
throughout the lesson....
gary kept on disturb dinah n mi....
he still use a fake cockcoach to scare us....
argh!!!!hate him....
ten....slowly....HE toks to mi...
haha...although i hav no more feelings toward him....
but i could feel that happiness in mi....
hehe....we talked...
haa...strange...miracle??
haha....i still helped him in his drawing....
haha...aiya...dun noe wad to say la....
but the feelings to him had gone....
so we r still firends....??haaha....
i know where i m heading...so dun worri....
i gt the direction of light at the end of the tunnel....
so...we shld keep it up...frns??
sure...shake back..........
things goes pretty well now huh...
haha....now i could feel the dull,heavy pain that sat on my
heart like a weight is gone....
can feel the happiness...thanks god for everything....
couldnt stop laughing.....eyes overwhelmed wif tears...
but they significance: love n peace......
----------------hang u--------------------
Monday, September 18, 2006
" Pets...... ; Monday, September 18, 2006 "
my room is soo messy...but i like that clothes...^^
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rememberin when i was young...
my two cousin and mi....
we bought two tortise each....
they are wif us for five years....
ever since i came....
haha....but...we, these pple....donot take care of them....
we pushed them to our grandpa....
he took care of them for abt 2 years and more
before he actualli cannot walk anymore....
we are realli cruel to those tortise...
they are now one n a half palm big size...
the credits all goes to ah gong...
if it is not him...i tink those tortise will die...
my ah gong spent allot on those tortise...
he bought different sizes of big containers
at their different age....
coz they grew too fast n they were big in size...
my ah gong used to wash them and feed them...
realli love my ah gong...ahha...he is so kind-hearted...
he didnt wan those tortise to died out ther in those ponds....
he was afraid they couldnt adapt to wild....
so he bear not discard them...
by right...the responsiblitiy...shld goes to us....
haha...we r so bad rite....animal abuse...
can say so....i felt guilty abt it....
bt when i jus came to sg...i used to tok to those tortise....
so funny n imaginary...
i expected them to know what i m tokin ....
bt they will jus stared at mi wif their two eyes...
thinking that i m gng to give them food....
but i noe somehow...they know...they understands....
todae my dad put two of them out in the balcony to''jog''
this was the rare times i saw them out of the container....
but the big one stayed ther veri long...
while the other smaller one wanted to climb over the railing
and it scares mi when it was gng to fall down...
my father quickly pick it and put it back
my heart nearly fell out....haha....
then the big one starts to move...is so cute...haha...
but this one is more obedient...it didnt climb out...
but to wad my papa said...he is trying to find a
shady n cool place to slp....
it crawl slowly...while we put all eyes to it...
it was trying to fit into a small chair...
but its shell was too big to be fit into it...
it was struggling through...but at last it gave up...
it was realli a fun time lookin at it....
i tink i have totally forgetten about them...
haix....here is the advice...
friends...pls dun be like mi...
before u purchase any pets...
pls thinking twice....
haha.....do u have the ability....
to afford....and will u promise to take care of their lives...
animals are also living tings...
they also have spirits....
so dont abuse them.....
--------hangu-------
" His time..... ; Monday, September 18, 2006 "
18'09'06
Today...both my aunties went to england wif my cousin....
can say that we can smell the air of freedom!!!!
we can feel the breeze blowin rite into our face....
we cannot tell the happiness in us....
we some sort cursed her not to com back....
long time never go blogging.....
haha....monday!!!good dae....
bt a tired one.....i couldnt wake up in the afternoon....
although my alarm rang loudly....
i couldnt hear....is strange....
first time i couldnt hear my alarm....
haha...or may be i didnt set it...lol.....
my father came this saturdae....
his task was to take care of my grandpa....
and of coz us...those notti kids....
we all were now using computer....
we planned how will we hide the com...
and pretend nth happen when my father comes up....
haha....we were clever pple who loves to lie....
haha....just joking....
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todae nothing much happened in school....
now seeing him is like quite normal....
glad to be that way....
haha.....soon or later....
his shadow will no longer in my heart...
so ganbande!!!hang u fight on...!!!
haah....two more wks to exam....
is so scary....u wont know the pressure it had on me...
haha...soo...i decided not to play com soo often....
i will study a bit later....
i hope those thingy will get into my brain....
PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT....
i agree....haha....asst!!!
so....pple out there dun think exam is still in the far end...
is jus 13 more daes....so fast that u wont notice it....
so AZA AZA fight on!!!!!
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His TIME....!![on my father..]
that night....
my fathe and i walked back home....
his leg was nimbling....
i turned my head and saw him walking much slower than mi....
i was a bit shocked....
but later....i understands....
my papa...is old....
when he walks in front of mi...
i could always see silverish threads on his head....
much more than last tym....
he said his leg pain due to some illness....
bt i know...deep in my heart....
my father is growing old...
suddenly some kind of pain jus rushed up my eyes....
i was tinking...
i dun tink i will be able to earn $$ to take care of my parents....
i feel bad about it....
they actualli carried illness....
my mum has a kind of stones in her wombs...
which will cause her life if it grew bigger....
but thanks god...it now turns smaller....
for my dad....he is too obese....
that he couldnt breathe at nite...
he will stop breathing for more than 100 times...
is true...i saw the report....is at danger risk....
nth can be done...bt he had to carry a machine....
wrapped around his head and a pipe through his nose...
everynight....is hard to slp...i noe....
but i knew they love mi and what they all did....
is for my own good....
all these things...they hid it....
they were afraid i would be worri...
but my aunt told my all that....
she said i m big enuf to understand my parents...
and must share their hardships....
ya...i totally agree....and i will like to do so.....
seeing my father's body being less agile....
i feels guilty....but i cannot do anythingh but to love n care for him....
his time....is running out....
------------HangU-----------
Thursday, September 14, 2006
" ; Thursday, September 14, 2006 "
sorri frns if i get nasty todae....
i didnt wan u all to see my tears...
is a bit too sidden...
i didnt noe how to explain wad's inside my heart....
is jus all messed up....i m confusin...
i dun noe wad had happen...
i jus couldnt breathe....
i m suffocating....
i couldnt stand it anymore....
i wan to stop my pace....
i m tired....
" ; Thursday, September 14, 2006 "
14'09'06....
can i jus say that i m dead.....
i m realllliii tired todae....
i wan stop everyting...
todae...a lot of things happened in CME lesson....
lol...may be i m too silly and weird to join into a group
that i shldnt be in....a strange feelings jus rushed up my heart....
is so hurting n painful....didnt noe how to express here....
i wans to vent anger...bt i couldnt...damn tired todae...
i m a loser in love....
i m a loser in friendship....
wad m i dng on earth.....
wtf....haix....feel like killing myself....
wad's wrng wif mi...???
i can get over him....bt not the time when he is besides mi....
y??i m soo stress up....
frns r ignoring mi???haha...lol...tinking too much...???
love...??wad's the defination???
wad shld i take the next step...???right or left???
i dun even noe the direction...pls god save mi....
i m suffering...i dun like tis....i dun like being alone....
being odd out...being..
now then i noe...
i m so smalll...so weak in everyting...
i noe that i no longer can hide things well....
too easier discover by others.....
where is my courage....i wan them back....
where is my strength...i need them...
i need them to hide everyting....
bt now seems like it wun would veri well....
sadness filled my heart....
i can forget him...i noe....i did...
bt why mus god give mi those chances to mess up my heart again...
i tot i was suppose to be presistence....
to be strong???
where is the promise i kept to myself....
frns....??
lol...liars.....
------------hang u-----------
" kent ridge park trip....=] ; Thursday, September 14, 2006 "
14'09'06
ystrdae didnt manage to post bcoz....
i came hm at 6.30....and by then my time is over....
ystrdae...we,2A,went to kent ridge park....
before that....we were supposed to meet at 1.50 at human rm...
the instructor...95 yrs old(he told us he was)...
we had a meeting at the humanity rm...
when the instructor tries to teach us some skill on map reading...
we all answered so well that he was taken aback...
bcoz we learnt it all in the first two term...
he said we were clever....
of coz man...2A ma....
haha...lol...then we set off to the park...
i was sooo damnn excited....like kidnergarden kid lidatt...
haha....on the way...the instructor...told us stories....
intro us the history of singapore....
haa...the most interesting stories were those ghost stories....
3pm...3 soldiers....lol....
when we reached ther....ther were 3 soldiers....modern...
haha...we were all laughing our ass off....
those soldiers looked at our direction....
i think they tot we were crazy n nuts....
next thunderstorm was coming...stuffy n hot....
bt we enjoy....we copied answer frm each other...
i was reallli fun....
my gang and i kept on disturb the instructor....
we were realli hyper...!!!!
haha....then we moved on to the bridge....
i was so scary when u walked on the old n creepy bridge...
it was dark n windy by then...lol...
bt we all have much fun...
the funny thingy came in...
soon tripped qiao xin....causing her...
nearly fall...we all bad gurl n boys laughed at her...
so mean rite..??
we went to museum...(i tink i spell wrngly,cant rmb the spelling)
haha....it was fun n scary...
we saw sth u shldnt see....bt we indeed enjoy the shows....
haha.....we went to the water machine and food machine....
danial's chocolate got scammed....
and we all start kicking the machine....
haha...so bad luck.,..
my kick onli works for yasmeen one...
haha....dun noe how...
dan n gang finally gets their chocolate....
haha...i tink the place was realli haunted...
lol....many things happen in b/w...
bt...all i knew was that i love the class trip...
and tnx god he gave the chance for us....
thanks sooo much....=)
------------hang u------------
[if i missed any part...pls forgive mi...todae...not well to type out all]
" ; Thursday, September 14, 2006 "
HANG U IS DEAD......
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
" bleh!!! ; Tuesday, September 12, 2006 "
love....fade it off....
haha...todae....in my heart...
a door opened finally....
the door hav this title on it...
[freedom]
freedom??for...??
for love...the love which causes much pain....
haha...for what causes mi to open that door...
is wad all jus happened todae....
jus this skl time...jus this 6 hrs....
my angels in that door fought bravely....
they eventually won the war...
and...i tink...oh no...is...
i CAN forget him now....
totally...vanish from my heart....but jus nid some time....
in b/w the time...i mus keep my determination....
firm...rooted to the ground....
freedom of love....it cant restrict mi anymore....
i m not gng to be prisoner of love...P.O.L
hhaa....jus wanna to say...
the lov efor him denser todae....
coz my heart messed up everyting...n it found a way
to solve it...to solve the knots in it....
love...fading off....although it still stain a markk...
bt is less suffering to mi...
love.....a big descision i have to make....
all by myself....i chosen it...
i took hold the key of freedom...and
i will open the door soon...one dae......
L.O.V.E fading...still...fading...
--------hang u-------
" Love...fade it off....no more.. ; Tuesday, September 12, 2006 "
12'09'06
haha...todae was realli havin much fun....
the char i noe came back....haha....
lol...todae...lots of pple veri inactive...tired...
haha...didnt get enuf slp too...
but was too hyper that i ignore the tiredness in mi...
hex....todae i tot dan's bag and walk cat walk in english class...
damn fun until the silly samuel came and block my stage...
i shld have slapped him...haha...jus jokin...
having much fun...soo...happii!!!!!^__^
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ystrdae nite...my aunt bought the whole chunk
of nail polishers....for my granny's small little fingers..
haha...then she wanted to try the colours....
so i lend my fingers to her...
while we were playing around wif the colours...
my two brothers came into the scene....
my 2nd bro...wanted some oso....
ten my aunt helped him to paint some...
he feels good!!then he carried on helpin himself...
lol...crazy...four ladies??haha...my two bro were having
great time over the paints...hahhaha...
my 2nd bro enjoy it the most...he show off his long,ladish,fingers
and is like those nails sold on magaines...haha....
haix...we are having a great time...
soo this could jus keep as memories...hahah...love them...
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starting of third wk conflict wif my sis...
my councilor wan to persuade mi to frn back her...
bt she failed...haix...the anger in mi would still not fade off...
jus didnt noe why....haix...bad hangu....
haha...nvm...we will c how things go....
haha.....tmr we(2A) is on a trip...
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!
i m so excited...and hopin tmr can come faster....
heheh....i mus get realli crazy....hashhshadaskljhdsakhd....
haha...peace for everything...time wont cure all wounds
is whether u wans to do it...is determinations....
--------------hangu-----------
Monday, September 11, 2006
" About schoolllll....^__________^ ; Monday, September 11, 2006 "
11'09'06
ystrdae nite...
i didnt slp...
i lied on the bed....it was 11.45....
i closed my eyes...bt my brain is soo awake....
didnt noe why...
the scariest thing was that.....
when i cant slp for a period of time....
i woke up...and i look at my hp....
oh no...is 3.45am....!!!!!
omg!!!i m so terrifed and trying my best to get some slp...
but i cant.....may be bcoz of the tea n coffee i drank....
after rolling for some time....i looked at the hp again...
4.30am...it shone into my eyes....
i tot myself...nah...cant slp liao....
in the end...i went to eat the flu medicine...
n finalli gt some slp...less than one hour....
haix...bt to some potential in me....
when i woke up...i m still so energetic...
may be is too excited to go skl....
skl rox!!!!no nid to rott at home...haha....so happi...
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when i first saw him...heart started to pump fast..
and i could feel the pain in it....groaning in agony....
haix....i could express my feelings now...
the feeling is strange n complicated....
is helpless...no med could cure the cut he marked...
bt i tink i m not gng to get over it....is kind of too hard for mi....
jus like marcus....haha....
friend wif him...???nah...he would not appreciate that....
haha...nvm...brighter sunshine will be tmr....
can jus bless him...??not realli....dun hav the courage to do that....
can jus say hi to him...??not possible...avoiding is b/w us...the gap is too big...
can msg him...??too odd n weird...like despo....nah forget it....
can...??i tink enuf....lets jus bring this out of the topic...
hahaha..............TIME....i need them...but they r always not ready for mi...
at the right occasions....haha....
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
todae...didnt have realli much fun...may be i m tired...
or...everione changed....is kind of hard to tok to those who i like to hang out wif...
haha...may b communication breakdown...lol...
bleh....can i say that i shld stop here...
my aunt is coming back haha...gtg....
buai buai.....bless those soul of the pple who pass away in 911...
-----------------hang u--------------
" About schoolllll....^__________^ ; Monday, September 11, 2006 "
" 911...one hope...millions life...great impact... ; Monday, September 11, 2006 "
11'09'06....911..
does any one still remember five years ago...
the day marked on the calender is tuesdae....
the marking made the world worried n depressed....
the event redden pple's dae wif blood n cruelty of terrorisium......
there was one man...one short story....two person saved...one died..
jus name him as eddie...
he worked in the world trade centre....the enormous n towering buildin...
when the plane first knocked or i shld say crash into the building...
he was at his office...filling doc..and crackin his head,
tinking wad to buy for his
little,adorable daughter's burthday...
when he sensed the big moition of the building...
he started to evacuate pple...
he shouted..he scream...he urged..he panicked...
everione in the scene felt the same as him...
HORRIFIED...!!!
they all took the safty stairway...
ther his story starts....
20 mins b4 he was gng to die....
he was hurrying down the steps....
one of the lady spain her ankle
bcoz of her broken heels of her shoe....
he called some strong man to carried her....
and she was saved...
15 mins left on earth...
he rushed to everi floor callin pple to run for their lives...
he was sweating...beads of pespiration formed on his forehead...
they were not jus sweat..they are cold sweat...
10 mins before god sent him back to heaven....
he was running down the step...
when out of the blue...
he heard a painful agony...
he turned around....
5 for mins to live....
two identical twin sista...aged 3-4...
was crying in pain...they fell down the stair...
and they couldnt find their parents...
wif that...they were lost...
3mins to see the light of the heaven door....
eddie...without hesitation...
he carried the two kid...
the building was collapsing...
screams could be heard...
explosion.....
mess....
cries....
end of world....
2mins left for him....
reaching to the ground....
furious flames blocked their way to entrance...
he could onli find a hole in the wall....
but it was onli enuf to fit the kids out...
the flames caught his trouser...
60 sec...the end of eddie....
he manage to push the two kids out
he kissed their forehead....
and....
big,immense construction pieces fell on him...
eddie disappeared in the children's vision....
bt eddie was visible in their hearts...
forever....
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eddie...saved two kids....
and the two kids...
found their parents.....they lived on...
eddie's daughter gets her burthdae present...
she was sad...but she was proud...
she was glad that her father didnt onli tot of himself...
but he sacrisfy himself for two lives....
please be grateful that u r now still alive sitting at hm...
reading my blog....haha...pls remember that dae....
be thankful to god...and cherish everione in ur life...
they might not live forever...any next second...
might be the last sec u tok to him/her....
CHERISH.....
-----------------------------hang u------------------
Sunday, September 10, 2006
" <> ; Sunday, September 10, 2006 "
10'09'06if u were given a pair of white pure wings...
where will u like to fly to...??
will u fly to ur favourite countries....??
for me...if i have them...
i will like to fly to pple's heart...
i will like to open their doors secretly....
i will peep inside...
and...listen to wad they have to say...
i will feel how they are....
i will put plaster to their holes when they r hurt....
i will giv my listenin ear to them...
i will lend them my crying shoulder....
HEART....is jus a rm for our feelings....
there are plenty of rooms....
there are sad door...happiness door...etc..
the feelings is controlled by urself....
not other...
the key to different rm is in ur own hand....
to open them anytime...any moment...
is ur choice....
so donot let other take hold of it...
try to tink in other pple's view....
try to put urself in others shoe....
donot overwork urself wif some particular things....
try to stop n relax...
donot stress ur self too much...
things will solve eventualli.....
life is like boat...let it go....let it flow....
enjoy life--dan
-----------hang u--------REboRn!!!
" RED ROCKS ON.... ; Sunday, September 10, 2006 "
10'09'06
todae is SUNDAE!!!!!!=]
i m sooo happi....bcoz tmr can go skl....
haha...almost rotten at hm....
bt todae...my aunt soo kind...she allows mi to play com...
sooo...wif plenty time...i change my blogskin...
unwilling...i changed it...i love the previous one...
RED...!!!!!!!my favourite colour....bt sadly...it hav code problem....
thats y now i change to this...haha...^____^
haix....tmr go skl looo...millions of feelings...
filled my heart...
nervous...anxious..happy...depress...joy...
horrified...??
haha...hang u can stand all difficulties de....
hahaAZAZAZ...
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todae...is oso the exact two wks of my quarell wif my sis....
haix....headache....
alrite...gd news...is tat my baka gan ge...frn back wif mi....
i dun noe why i wont feel like veri far n strange...
we r still tat close...lol...pretty lame....
haha...i being a gd gurl read story bk for one hour....
next...i help my aunt wif the filling...
and she reward mi wif icecream...
ten she happi...she let mi play com...
so happi...
although i cant go out...at least todae can play...haha
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Believe in tmr...haha...i noe tmr will be sunshine...
haha....hope i can wake up as earli as 5.45am...
haha....i am afraid i can not wake up...
i like pig....this whole wk..slp until the sun is tanning my butt..
ten wake up...lol....veri excited over tmr...haha....lol...
haha...todae...didnt study...i bit guily...lol....
having slackin the whole wk...didnt realli get some energy to study...
haix...get to kick off the bad lucks brought by JULY....
now i m gng to start over everyting.....
live a heathly life....
HANG U ROTTT!!!!!!
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Friday, September 08, 2006
" ; Friday, September 08, 2006 "
ALL ABOUT HIM!!!
haha
08'09'06....
these few daes...coz nth to do...
plus noone to tok to....i started thinking of him...
haha....thinkin back...
jus let my life hav 5 times of favourite....
i can eat french fries in 5 different places...
i can live in five different places....
i can buy 5 different model of hp....
i can change cut hair in five different shop...
but...i actualli fall in love FIVE times on the same person...
sayonara...in the end didnt manage to be together...
kacha....at last...i was the one who was hurt deeply....
hope i could wish u happi wif ur like ones....
but frankly...i canot do tat...i hate it...
-----------------hang u-----in love
" ; Friday, September 08, 2006 "
08'09'06
haha....
i m realli dng great now...
rmb the first few posts??
i wrote abt my grandparents??
haha...now...i realli close to themm....i love them...i remembers them...=)
now...everydae..i say gd morning to them...then i read newspaper...
durin afternoon..i will be lottering around the hse...and sat besides my grandpa...
and we started to tok crap...haha...lol...or jus simply watch tv....
at night...at alternate daes....i will help my grandpa to pluck his beard....
i will help my grandma do her leg..haha...then...
nowadays...they like sit at the balcony....
then as i lotter...i will go there n tok to them....
haha....i tink i m doing great...??haha...i now shld never forget them....
haha....todae...ystrdae...the dae b4....the dae much b4...the daes in holiday...
were all the most boring daes i ever hav...
stayin at hm...either starrin at the books....and started to daydream or
i will jus lotter around in the hse....cannt stand it anymore...is so disgustin...
listening to my frns all go out n play n hav fun...
gt a little bit jealous...i m in jail for almost 10 daes....
2 more daes... i can c the sunshine again??
lol...hope so...miss school days....
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there was once a fisherman....
his fishing skill is that good that he could catch damn lot of fishes in one dae...
his fishes were sold in all market...and were all sold out by afternoon...
then...a rich man came to to village...
he walked by the sea shore....
and saw fisherman lay on the beach relaxin....enjoyin the breeze...
he asked him:'since u r so skillful...why didnt u catch more fishes
so u can earn more money...
so u can live in big hse...
so u can enjoy ur life???"
fisherman replied:"i m relaxing now....i m happy now..."
u noe why he didnt wan to follow the rich man's saying?
is because...when he catches more fishes....
ya...in deed he will gets richer...
when he gets richer....he will go for more....
like tis...he will forgets when to stop n relax....
ya...rite???sometimes we shldnt go for more n more....
we also needs time to rest....
time to relax n enjoy....
is richer will get u a healthy n happi lifestyle???
i dun tink so....when u r rich....
u needs more to fulfill ur nother goal...
is like never ending...
if u r satisfy...
u needs nothing ...
n u will lost nothing....
rite???haha....
-------------hang u-----------
" ; Friday, September 08, 2006 "
08'09'06
Can i ask sth...
m i realli tat irritating??
i called my frns these few daes...
either they r too busy...or they jus ignore my calls....
i know may be i m too irritating....bt i m rotting at hm...
guys...u tink i realli wan to call n disturb u all...
haix...i m jus to restricted n confided....I M GNG MAD!!!
5 days stayed at hm....will go crazy...
then somemore noone tok to...
u tink i like tis lifestyle...
i hate pple ignoring mi...
i hate to be alone....
i hate pple who i love n care...
gives mi attitude...
i hate it when i m scolded when i didnt noe anything....
realli feeling veri bad when someone jus did tat to mi....
m i realli tat irritating...
may be i m....
i m hated by pple??
lol...wtf....
-------------------hang u(not in good mood =[)
Thursday, September 07, 2006
" ; Thursday, September 07, 2006 "
little feelings corner...BLEH
when he left...
my heart was empty...
my mind was lost...
my feelings were strange...
my life was mess up....
if onli if could erase everyting...
will evryting back to normal...
if i paint a piece of paper black...
the 2nd tym..i wan paint it white...
i wan to make it into its original colour...
will that be possible??
will he change back to wad he was...
will i still be who i m...?
lost in the maze...
can i jus find the way out...
this is my life...i rule it...
and i wont spoil it...
i swear...i promise...
not jus becoz of a guy....
---------------------------------------------BLaCkSToNe^___^
And, life without DUMMY will be equal to the worst night mare...31'May'08
