Thursday, September 14, 2006
" ; Thursday, September 14, 2006 "
14'09'06....
can i jus say that i m dead.....
i m realllliii tired todae....
i wan stop everyting...
todae...a lot of things happened in CME lesson....
lol...may be i m too silly and weird to join into a group
that i shldnt be in....a strange feelings jus rushed up my heart....
is so hurting n painful....didnt noe how to express here....
i wans to vent anger...bt i couldnt...damn tired todae...
i m a loser in love....
i m a loser in friendship....
wad m i dng on earth.....
wtf....haix....feel like killing myself....
wad's wrng wif mi...???
i can get over him....bt not the time when he is besides mi....
y??i m soo stress up....
frns r ignoring mi???haha...lol...tinking too much...???
love...??wad's the defination???
wad shld i take the next step...???right or left???
i dun even noe the direction...pls god save mi....
i m suffering...i dun like tis....i dun like being alone....
being odd out...being..
now then i noe...
i m so smalll...so weak in everyting...
i noe that i no longer can hide things well....
too easier discover by others.....
where is my courage....i wan them back....
where is my strength...i need them...
i need them to hide everyting....
bt now seems like it wun would veri well....
sadness filled my heart....
i can forget him...i noe....i did...
bt why mus god give mi those chances to mess up my heart again...
i tot i was suppose to be presistence....
to be strong???
where is the promise i kept to myself....
frns....??
lol...liars.....
------------hang u-----------
And, life without DUMMY will be equal to the worst night mare...31'May'08
