Friday, September 29, 2006
" ; Friday, September 29, 2006 "
29'09'06todae...i didnt go to skl....
dun feel like gng to skl...
may be is too stress over those stupid stuff....
haix...yesterdae...sth realli happen and made my life worst...
i saw sth abt him which made mi cried like shit....
now then i know....all along....is my foolish...stupidness...love...
haha....i reached home ystr at 4pm....after i went to see a doctor...
i was sick these few daes...stress up wif some stupid frnship problems....
and i sat at the swing....my mind went blank...and i mumbled to myself....
didnt noe...all along is only mi who attend the love drama...
he didnt even attend...so...single love...hah....
i laughed at myself....for almost three mths...have been liking someone who dun even loves mi...
well...now him found his happiness....shld be glad bah....
happi...??now everione had their happiness...
looking at them...felt so envy....haha...lol...
then i sat ther for 15 mins...eyes filling wif tears...
jus then my sis who i gave 15 miss call to her finally called back...
i dun noe why i whenever i hear her voice...my heart jus feel so pain n
tears will jus roll down...and everyting will jus gets ugly...
i told her i m at the swing and would like her to come down....
i was crying on my own...haix...the pain is so irritatin...
i jus wan to cry them out...omg...i m nuts....
haha...my sis came...and i jus pounced into her hugs...and cried like hell....
she comforted mi...and i told her everyting....
haha....that time...she nearly slapped mi...i tink she wans to....
bcoz...is so different from the hang u she noes....
i kept on crying after june holis....
frnship...love...family....
for everyting...i cried....
but for him...i cried the most...haha...
my heart realli died by then....i couldnt breathe probably when i saw the scene...
haha....so lame n stupid...i took is over...??haha....nah...is over now....
no more childish n day dreaming....
todae...my eyes were so swollen that i didnt wan to go to skl...
is abit weird and too depress....
so...i rather stay at home...hex...and frnship problem....
i dun care anymore....is childish to fight...and i will jus let it be...
but i will continue my life...the life that says:"HANG U ROCKS!!!"
haha...todae...i deleted everyting about him....and...may be that will help to lessen the pain in me...i now i didnt win his heart....so lets jus accept it....
as...is all done....managing and filing all my messy documents....
i think shld pick up my enthusiaium for study....
now...my love is dedicated to studies....
dun think too much liao...hehe....i noe myself the best....
i noe the timing....so i wont waste any more time on useless things...
hang u AZAZA !!!!fight on....hc rox?!! may be
love him........hc....
i wont run away from reality again...
--------------hang u-----------
And, life without DUMMY will be equal to the worst night mare...31'May'08
