Thursday, January 17, 2008
" ; Thursday, January 17, 2008 "
17 Jan 08
TIRED was the only word to sum up today...
sometimes i do think i can forget something...
and pretend nothing had happen before...
but the more i lie to myself..the more i concern about it...
i didnt wish to be in this situation...
but i have no choice...
i wasn't given a choice to choose...
did i?
wanting to forget something is really tough...
wanting to erase the past is more tough...
wanting to force myself not to recall is the most painful...
every single thing that reminds me...
every single places that still leave a mark...
every thing...
i felt so sorry for myself that...
i didnt make up to forget all...
but to remember them..
every single of them...
not wanting them to leave me like dust...
but soberly letting them consuming my heart...
the pain...
u wont understand...
the heart...
u didnt manage to cure...
the tears...
u didnt catch...
i really hate and dislike this...
when?
when will the pain fade...
when?
when will the past drift off..
i have no idea but to avoid?
that's the most stupidest thing to do..
i know...
may be i am that most stupid person who committed this...
somehow...
your shadow had never left me before...
and all i opt for...
were never true...
i aint that strong afterall..
And, life without DUMMY will be equal to the worst night mare...31'May'08
