Sunday, January 27, 2008
" ; Sunday, January 27, 2008 "
27JAN
woke up freaking early...
and headed to attend the monthly temple classes opened especially for youths..
yes...i do believe in god...thus i felt like listening to their advices and experiences..
however...i guess i m way too tired that i kept falling asleep in the class...
this is bad ...i know...but i cant help to resist the temptation of going into the dreamland..
my eye lids were heavy and i cant forced them to open again...
so they went shut in no time...haa...
anyway...i did manage to keep myself awake by answering questions..
but do not expect me to provide excellent answers but crappy ones..
that's the only way to make others laugh and at the same time keeping myself a wake...
cool?haha...about 1pm plus...we had our lunch in the temple...
after that appetizing lunch by my aunt....we had a debreif and next oraganizing activities...
they were short of two more performers for the reuinon of ai xin...
upon hearing that...i felt awake...i questioned whether if i could wear anything i like...
and they agreed ultimately...hees...so i agreed....
oh my...i m going to wear lolita!!!!HAPPY...haha..lol...
anyway...i m looking forward to the arrival of the day...
yet...at the same time worrying and nervous for the stage performance..
i believe god will stay by my side...and give my courage!!!
haa...
talking back about sleeping late yesterday night...
i was busy uploading photos....
and as u all can see...
i went shoppin yesterday..
although i buy nothing but a blouse for CNY....
i felt happy shoppin with peg lain pau and char...
sadly..not all the mao xian manage to gather together and shop...
when i went home yesterday night...
it was about 10 pm plus...
was warned by mama to go home eralier next round..
or esle she would not allow me to go out again...;p
i took 334 back home...ALONE...
i didnt really concern about being alone..
but about what i saw and experience through the bus trip...
it was not me who wants to recall all these...
but seeing and witnessing that...
make my memories flashing all back...
hate that most...
it was the seat we sat...
it was the seat we held our hands tight..
it was the 334...
it was couple...
it was the same position...
there was a couple sitting at that seat...
holing hands together..
the girl's head leanign against the boy's shoulder...
i ignore that...
painfully looking down..
shamefully wanted to erase all those disgrace moments..
irritatedly fighting back all those tears...
however...the packed bus forced me to stand right in front of them...
i dun want let those memories overcome me...
i dun want tears to fall out just because of him...
i hate him...i know...
trying to ransack my bag for ear piece...
but apparently the god is fooling me...
i cant find it in the midst of the bus racing across the streets..
i gave up after awhile...and wanting to move into the rear...;
however...i guess the god is wanted me to face the reality...
noone alighted thus the bus remains packed...
neither i moved also...
tears rolling within my eyes....
i turned around facing my back to that two couples...
glaring out to the window....
mind blank....
i am really exhausted...
both mentally and physically...
Let's please end all these...
i begged u..
And, life without DUMMY will be equal to the worst night mare...31'May'08
