Wednesday, February 20, 2008
" ; Wednesday, February 20, 2008 "
20'feb'08
it was the call that gave me a blow...
i was about to head towards the busstop...
wanting to go home for my tuition ...
when this unpredicted call rang...
i ransacked my bag for the damn phone...
was astounded to hear the news...
it was not anything one would like to know or even dream of...
my aunt who is currently still in sydney preparing my cousin's further studies..
informed me about my grandpa being hospitalized...
at first...
i thought this was a prank call..
later...i glare at the reality such that the number was my aunt's...
i choked...
i swallowed...
i listened..
there some kind of bleeding in my grandpa's stomach..
and he was sent to the emergency room this morning...
i stood rooted to the ground...
my eyes turned blurrish....
my mind blank...
yeah...i did manage to walk home without fainting half way...
i didnt really express my depression and sorrow in front of MX
i guess...
either i am too shock to react...
or i am wanted to endure till last...
i don't know...
this particular afternoon...
i dashed home....
praying in front of the guan yin with the three joystick...
full heartedly...
in the hope god will help my grandpa get through this...
next...i don't know what got on me...
i switched on my com...
and watched prison break...
i didnt want to take a nap...
as i don't want to sleep when i am afraid grandpa would leave just in the whislt of my nap...
as i stared at the screen...
my heart was pounding hard and fast....
not really concentrating on the interesting storyline or climax of the story...
i waited for nathan and my brother to come back...
so we can go to the temple and pray for my grandpa...
my brother came back quite late...it was the evening then...
we decided to set off for temple....
at there...
i prayed with my fullest earnest sincere....
later...i phoned my aunt in sydney...
she finally told me the entire process....
i fought back the tears which were on the verge to fall off...
my grandpa just came out of the emergency room...
and was situated at the ICU...
tonight...
he have to be all alone..by himself...
when i thought of him being alone in the empty hospital...
i felt extremely dismay and unhappy...
why cant i be just there for him....?
why cant i be the one who lie there..?
for him...?
why cant i take over all his pains his suffering now...?
ps...i go take tissue...tears rolling offf...
tomorrow...my daddy will fly his way here..
to take care of ah gong...
i really hope he can get through this...
ah gong...u must be determine...
all of us will support u....
ah gong...we love u!!!<3
And, life without DUMMY will be equal to the worst night mare...31'May'08
