Saturday, March 22, 2008
" ; Saturday, March 22, 2008 "
this is how you will feel like when
-you ditched someone who you loved.
-you was dumped by some stupid guy who hurts you..but you love him.
-you feel desperate to stead with that idiotic guy who rejected you alot of times.
-you are despair.
when he/she actually mentioned that:"probably we shall stay as friends..."
and you will be like unable to breathe, and your mind spun frantically to figure out what you had done wrong.Was that my problem?Or was that his?third party?....
those wild thoughts you just had were ranged to small to big...you will wonder...
to you...he/she was perfect, so how could he having a problem..?
And, next, he/she will just leave your life in tranquil and not even letting you notice it.
Is gone...that second you nodded in agreement with his advice.
that's it.
you knew it was impossible to be friends again.
you cannot bear to leave him...when you were not given a choice.
How are you supposed to smile as you passed by him/her at school, when deep in your heart, you wanted to collapse?How could you actually unclear his/her promises?How are you going to endure all the rumors and questions about your break-up with him/her when he/she act as if nothing had happen?
Days later..Months after...Years passed...
If you still cannot get the part of him/her out of your world.
And, as you were about to erase him/her, (*not totally, as you wouldn't want to),
you were forced to sit beside him/her through stupid talks or even work together.
During that period, i bet you badly wanted to just go home and hide yourself under the pillow and cry yourself dry.
After the broke up, you found yourself losing semblance of emotional control. You find yourself sobbing when a certain song came on the car radio and have to make up excuses to your father(the one who was driving the car). You would hop by his/her locker or place he/she usually hangs out,in hope that you might accidentally cross paths with him/her. You find a place where you can observe him/her from far without alerting him.
You were just like swimming in tar, when the rest of the world, including him/her, had so seamlessly moved on.
Hating the tears that welled the base of your throat right now?
I didnt manage to bear the pain too...
truly
Hang u's feeling right now...
And, life without DUMMY will be equal to the worst night mare...31'May'08
