Wednesday, April 02, 2008
" ; Wednesday, April 02, 2008 "
2 APR 08
EVERYTHING IS A MESS IN MY LIFE NOW!!!!
I AM GOING TO REGISTER IN IMH SOON!!!
OH MY!!!
LOW POINT OF MY LIFE?!
I DON'T KNOW!
I AM JUST SO EMOTIONAL AND STRESS OVER THINGS!!
DAMN IT!!
TEST TEST TEST
THEY ARE FREAKING MY LIFE OUT!
Monday-A-maths
Tuesday-Social Study & Chemistry
Wesnesday-E-maths & Compre
Thursday-Physic & Compre
Friday-Chinese Compo
RESULTS RESULTS RESULTS
THEY ARE TOO MAKING ME DEVASTATING
A-maths 23/25..i could add the two marks if i had not mistaken ss test on monday.
SS-i still cannot take that 5 % of flexibility,Aunt Jas said, out of me yet
whenever there's references, i tended to forgot what i was supposed to write.
moreover, i didnt attend the lesson for 2 days last week..
Was demoralize when actually i can do better! Rarr
Chemistry-although it was only a small test, it came surprised and i was caught off-guard.
as i was absent for two days...i dun noe wad mdm tay was teaching..
ALL the ALKANE ALKENE ALCOHOL gone MAD through my head..
and there...i did badly for this small test...considering it as the worse
chem marks in history..disappointing mdm tay too!T^T
E-maths-SPEECHLESS....bemused bewildered...totally confusion!
No time was the conclusion...or may be it's my own mishandling time managment.
Chinese-got back my damn oral marks 30/40?
how can that be?WTH!
yes..i didnt really prepare..
yes.. mine conversation topic was the most diff one.
yes.. the bloody teacher didnt lead me for the topic..
yes..i am now blaming and throwing the burden to others
when i know i am not supposed to..
ENG COMPRE-with the warm and hostile weather...
it's gone..
FRUSTRATION:
-can say that i am too worrying over my studies
that now...i just cant manage my own feelings..
whenever it comes to marks and exams..
i felt so lost and i just hate it when pple started to compare..
i cannot be always on top of the mountain...
i dun wan to...
i want to travel down the mountain to visit different places down there...
but currently i cant...although i knew all these...
i just cant move my first step..
i am stuck!
my temper and emotions had been like changing rapidly and unknowningly..
i dun noe if it's everyone getting angry over me or wad...
i just knew i am dislike by many..
in the way where i m too straight forward..
for example...i just hurt my dear cousin in class with my words in rash
i didnt mean all these...
i just cant control myself recently...
something up my head had gone wrong...
MX
everyone revolving around me seems to affected by my contagious illness..
everyone starts to blame and scold me...
i just dun get why?
just want to free myself from this bars
and just a moment of silence...
and someone to guide and support me..
that's all i wanted...
i am sorry to those whom i had used words like sharp pointed knife to slash with...
esp MX...
pls understand.........
Life is never without their stumbling blocks..
i am with these blocks now..
And, life without DUMMY will be equal to the worst night mare...31'May'08
