Thursday, July 31, 2008
" ; Thursday, July 31, 2008 "
31 July
Sick today....
you guys may be surprised that i am sick when i looked perfectly fine the past few days..
i was taken aback too...
Was having a headache on Tuesday...
probably due to the weather....
yesterday...while studying with dummy...
my head was heavy and i started to feel giddy...
after i reached home...
i was kinda hungry...
so i opened the kitchen drawers...
argh...NO food accept some biscuits...
i ended up clearing all the biscuits in the box...
drank a cup of water...and there i went...
SLEEP~
this morning...i couldn't even wake up...
was too tired, i couldn't even lift myself up...
i sat at the edge of the bed after numerous times of my maid waking me up..
i forced open my eyes...
but to see everything blurrish and my mind went blank...
No choice, i told Nathan i am not going to school...
my throat was dry and in excruciating pain...
went on to sleep after messaging some peers to inform about my absent today...
As i drop dead on my bed...
Little that i know...
my sister had already board the plane...
i didn't managed to picked up her calls as i couldn't even hear the calls...
felt so upset when i received her last msg for me...
i know she must be mad at me that i didn't even pick up her call...
haix...guilty~
-She left-
Cannot imagine my life is once more without my sis....
this entire two months with her was great...
i enjoyed every single moment with her...
living with her once more...
reminds me continuously the life in lakeside...
the time where we used to quarrel ...
the time where we used to fear fong yi...
the time when we sleep on the same bed..
talking about the guy we admire in school...
whenever i am depressed...
she will not hesitate to embrace me in her arms...
my sister is the best accompany in my life...
she never complain about my demanding character...
i just love to ordering her around helping me do stuff..
she knew at times i am just too lazy to do anything..
she will never grumble...
My sister....
is the best sister i had...
she kept every single secrets we share...
whenever i m troubled over ghuimi or friendships...
she will give me the best advice...
i really cant live without her at times...
ever since she left yesterday....
i discovered how important she is...
she gives me a sense of comfort and i always feel secure with her...
i wont panic and frightened when she's around...
she had always be with me whenever i get into trouble....
after she left...
now...
i fear of everything...
i fear one day...
i cannot face the consequences when she's not with me...
i fear ....
but i have to move on...
no matter where she is...
i will still love and miss her...
our bond shall not break no matter what comes our way....
i am happy that i didn't quarrel with her this round...
probably both of us had grown up...
perhaps....
we understand each other better after so long we had not meet...
and may be...
i don't feel lonely anymore...
sis:
don't worry..
ghuimi will take good care of me!^^
Please take care of yourself too...
i really miss u!!~
sorry about today..
was sick!...ahaha
shall see u next year...
*sob*
And, life without DUMMY will be equal to the worst night mare...31'May'08
