Just Hang U's Diary...

Thursday, August 28, 2008

" ; Thursday, August 28, 2008 "

Long missed blue sky!~

HAPPY BELATED TO MY SISTER!~

HER SPECIAL CAKE!~

HER GON FACE~

Mami helping her to make a wish!!!
wishing that she's prettier and weathier

YEA!!!sing that dumb song baby!

She seems happy!

they are gaying? or les-ing?

her dumb face...
kor...
thanks for being there whenever i need u...
^^
whenever i am down...
you'll always call me and talked to me...
i appreciated all the things u did...
and thanks for being so caring...
ahhaha..
sister forever!!!~
next year...
when you are gone...
hope u still will contact me through email and msn...
i will definitely miss u!!!!
lastly......
HAPPY 19 BIRTHDAY!!!
10 rocks...(you know what i mean)
i enjoyed my 9 years of life in singapore with you...
you totally rock~
although u are stubborn at ALL times..^^

a cool video on him...guys...enjoy!

UP NEXT!!!!!
GRADUATION CELEBRATION OF YU KAI TUNG(distant cousin)

his girlfriend..pretty?
she's a model!!!~hahahah....

cute cute de her...

his sister...
they look super alike!!!~

just some random photos

BORING LIFE OF MINE

start doodling while i was writing an essay

dang dang!!!!

MAO XIAN ROCKS ON~~
long time never take pictures of mao xian...
miss them soooooo much....
of course i miss the time spent with them...
though now is o level time....
i hope we can stay forever close together!!^^

mao xian with her heart!

like ghost!!!hahahhahhahahhaa

i drew it...

a small kid occupying our place...^^

me of coz

ROAD.....was trying out my camera..
it's spoilt now...got to fix it tml...
with my phone too

pau took

randomness

sebast's art piece...cool~~~

sea of colours

DINAH ILLYANA

please do not misunderstand..we are jsut friends

I LOVE HER~~

CLASS OUTING ON 29 AUG

i rocks

leg leg and u u(dummy, dun be sensitive..it's just photo)=]

my retarded face!
hahsjdhjsahdjkshdjksahdjsa

shealie

mr tan's gon gon face...
reciting his process of wooing ms ang!!hahahahha
cool right?

i asked him that question~~~~~~

woooo.....^^

we are 4C

hey pple...there's more photos..but my camera was down...
so most of the pictures were corrupted...
i will try to retrieve them tml...
so sad...but sorry!!!hahahha

anyway....
that day was realling awesome...
we gave mr tan a real surprise....
dinah and i bought snacks and packed them into small packets...
like giving to primary school students liddat lo...
we spent time on them...
so 4C please appreciate...
every single of us paid $6- for both the pizza and the presents for mrs.tan and tan c^2
it was astounding that mr tan actually fock out $100 dollars for us to buy food...
this eventually subsidize our cost and put more $$ on presents!!!
^^
we got mr tan two G2000 shirt for him...
one blue and one light brown..
we bought dark colours for him..
because we found that he looks better in dark colours..
sadly that he forgotten to wear dark colours when we took our class photos..
ahha...

but yesterday i am sure he was touched..
coz he doesnt know we bought present for him...
and we did not arouse his suspicion on us purchasing pizza not needing to collect money on the spot...dumb him...
but he's the best form teacher we had...
thanks mr tan and mrs tan who was not able to attend our class outingT^T
haha..
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!!!^^
4C rocks on!!!^^

dummy:
seriously...i find u really dummy...
sometimes words can hurt one unintentionally...
could u please just learn to take care of my feelings...
not by saying things too directly...
though beating around the bush is not a good thing sometime...
but at least i will feel better..
no need always so straight forward right?
i sometimes want to share my interest with u..
then u just say dun wan...
very hurt u noe?
if u dunn wan...
just pretend u want lah...
at least i feel better...
i thought being tgt shld be understanding wad each other like and accept them?
or like accept their interest also...?
i never said anything about ur interest
because i respect u...
because i want to accept who u are...
i am accepting whatever u like...
so cant u just accept my character at times?
haix...dunnoe wad to say lah..
was upset when u dun wan to watch the damn movie..
just wanna to share..end up ...
haix....
may be u really dun like...
no choice lah
i am not angry...
just...
^^

Sunday, August 24, 2008

" ; Sunday, August 24, 2008 "

Thursday, August 21, 2008

" ; Thursday, August 21, 2008 "

Hey peers...
long time never blog....

you all wont believe...
just between these few days...
A lot of things happened on me...
can say they were the most devastating point of my life...

my aunt found out about my relationship with M.y
initially, i didn't want to blog this...
Yet, there's a urge in me that i just want to type out everything in my heart..
i knew i had hurt my aunt deeply...
i simply lied to her...
and broke the trust i had built over years...
she's totally upset when she had learnt that i actually betrayed her...
i knew from the start i began this relationship...
i knew from the moment i accepted him...
i knew that i have to bear all these consequences...

But i didn't know it turned out so unexpected and i was dumb founded..
that night...
my aunt cried..
i cried...
she forgiven me...
but this forgiveness come with a price...

"BREAK UP"

In between...
a lot of things happened...
but i think i shall keep them confidential...

outcome will be me given a choice by my aunt...
to me...it's not even a choice but a must...
-To have him, you leave Singapore forever...
-To leave him, you have a bright future...

What am i supposed to choose from when i was given this...
seriously i cannot disobey her...
all i can do...was to follow her advice or rather instruction although i knew in my heart...

dismay and unwillingness wanted to fight their way through...
i thought of giving up...
i thought of dying...
i thought of being cruel...
but her choice came without an option...

i know what she is doing right now...
Is all for my own good...
Is all because she loves me too much...
Is all because guys now are so unreliable..
Is all because there's too much negative stories going around..
Is all due to him giving her a bad impression..

But she haven even meet him...
and she just jumped to conclusion that he's a bastard...
she didn't even listen to what i think or feel...
all she did was to put sense into me...
made me think and with her powerful words...
i was almost convinced...
seriously...i felt guilty and i decided not to lie to her anymore...
i cannot afford to lose her once more....

so here...
i broke up with a guy i love...

Ever since the incident happened...
i really thought he doesn't love or care for him as what my aunt told me...
it was after that night...
i discovered i was wrong...
he wasn't that type of guy my aunt mentioned..
but just a little bit dumb...
and a bit slow in action...

this is the first time i felt that i am not the only one giving into this relationship..
but he is giving in too....
i am relieved and happy over that...
at least i know..
he didn't play my feelings...

it's so hard just to get out of a relationship that u really gave into..
although there were times when he made me really upset...
i could still remember the times when he treated me good...
my aunt said that both of us don't belong to the same world...
we don't share the same interest...
and that he had this horrible temper and character...
Lastly....he will find better girl in the future...
so do i....
ain't all these so true and persuasive?

but cant we just be the pair out of the million who think the same thing?
why cant we just prove u wrong?

anyway....
It's over.....

The end and a beginning of a new chapter...

Saturday, August 09, 2008

" ; Saturday, August 09, 2008 "

I believe in us...so please don't lose faith

we are considered one cell...
let's just stay together forever..
To Sister....i will definitely miss you..

let's keep this confidential then...shhh

don't mess with the mao xian...
or esle...you are reminded to watch your back...

People...
there are several main things to follow up later on...
1.wj's burthday...
2.Olympics Games
3.My interesting life

HAPPY BURTHDAY TO LO WEN JIE ON 7 OF AUG
Mr.LOH BEN DAN:
i had not forget your burthday yet..
just that no time celebrate with you...
but at least i never forget right?
haha...anyway..hoped you enjoyed your celebration with friends...
going to taiwan soon right?
so good...envy u...

secondly...
yesterday
the 29 th OLYMPICS GAMES declared open..
China spent about $60 billion on the game...
which is treble of the amount pumped into the games by the Athens...
Even then....China did a marvellous job...
i watched the whole ceremony on star hubs chanel one...
it was extravaganza and spectucalor...
It's just AWESOME....
it brought out not only the chinese's culture ...
but also proved to the world that China is no longer that vulnerable...
They are strong and powerful...
CHINA ROCK ON!

Thirdly...
yesterday...
my mama(aunt), kor kor(cousin) and my real parents came to Sg..
i felt really happy to see mama...
as life without her..seriously bored me out...
bored as in ...
when you get home...there's no one to hear your troubles..
when you need someone to hug one when you are stress...
no one is there...
when you did something wrong...you want to ventilate your guilt..
there's no one to lend a listening ear and give you advice...
or may be when you are sick...there's no one accompanying you to the doctor...
sometimes....you want to share your happiness...
the house seems to be empty and lifeless...
talking to others just seemed so tiring...
*i am not saying that dummy didn't do all these...
just that at times...is not the right person..*

however...now that mama is back...
i really feel that the house is back to normal...
everything seems so bright and lively...
she redeemed my motivation...
i really want to work hard now..
after all the weeks or monthsslacking ...
or rather...lost my direction...
i now...serious wish i can work hard for olevel..
i hope this is not only a say..
but a do..
a must do...
shall put my play aside...
and here comes my turn to fight for this major examination which is once in a life time...

hang u will work hard...
Let's all work hard to achieve our goals...
WE CAN DO IT!!!!^^