dismay and unwillingness wanted to fight their way through...
i thought of giving up...
i thought of dying...
i thought of being cruel...
but her choice came without an option...

i know what she is doing right now...
Is all for my own good...
Is all because she loves me too much...
Is all because guys now are so unreliable..
Is all because there's too much negative stories going around..
Is all due to him giving her a bad impression..

But she haven even meet him...
and she just jumped to conclusion that he's a bastard...
she didn't even listen to what i think or feel...
all she did was to put sense into me...
made me think and with her powerful words...
i was almost convinced...
seriously...i felt guilty and i decided not to lie to her anymore...
i cannot afford to lose her once more....

so here...
i broke up with a guy i love...


Ever since the incident happened...
i really thought he doesn't love or care for him as what my aunt told me...
it was after that night...
i discovered i was wrong...
he wasn't that type of guy my aunt mentioned..
but just a little bit dumb...
and a bit slow in action...

this is the first time i felt that i am not the only one giving into this relationship..
but he is giving in too....
i am relieved and happy over that...
at least i know..
he didn't play my feelings...


it's so hard just to get out of a relationship that u really gave into..
although there were times when he made me really upset...
i could still remember the times when he treated me good...
my aunt said that both of us don't belong to the same world...
we don't share the same interest...
and that he had this horrible temper and character...
Lastly....he will find better girl in the future...
so do i....
ain't all these so true and persuasive?



but cant we just be the pair out of the million who think the same thing?
why cant we just prove u wrong?








anyway....
It's over.....



The end and a beginning of a new chapter...