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Sunday, September 21, 2008
" ; Sunday, September 21, 2008 "

NO POST FOR TODAY

seriously...
i don't know what to say...
it had struck me enough to break down the whole night..
i had never thought that one can be just so heart broken because she was not trusted...


i risked my bond with my family...
just to be with u....
And....
Ain't that showed how much i love you?
Ain't you suppose to be grateful and satisfied?
Ain't you supposed to take my feelings into considerations?
Ain't you just show some respect?
Can't you just pampered me?
Can't you just stop being so sensitive?
Can't you just stop being so stingy?
Why ?
I just don't get it...?
i gave up lots of things to be with u....
and almost gave u everything u need?
Why?
Just why?
u still couldn't trust me?



Ain't trust is the most important component?


Trust.....



it's heartbreaking enough...



Trust...



why do i venerate it?


WORDS MEANT NOTHING WHEN IT'S TRANSPARENT...
BUT...
WHEN YOU UNDERSTAND THEM....
IT HURTS HELL LOT




And four months turned out to be such a calamity
When my effort and hard work were not acknowledge...
And for the four months....
i did not gain any trust...
And for the past four months....
i had been giving in so many, but how come no one is appreciating?
And that four months
is all that's enough to break my heart...
These four months.......
I am proved to be a girl who gave no secure....


Woah....
i am so judged..



I don't need a cure ....
All that i need...
Is just a big bandage to fasten my broken pieces back...


I need time....
I need to breathe....
I need to heal....


i wondered how many more times...
my heart can restand the pain again and again?
Will forgive and forget just faded the pain off?





About Me

I Came to Earth on
24 Nov 1991

I ♥ MAO XIAN™!!
•>______<•
Friendster I Love to be who i am...
I Love Lolita and gothic..
I Love to be crazy..
I Love to SHOPPIN!!♥♥
I Love take photos...♥♥♥
I Love MAO XIAN!!♥
I Detest backstabber..
I Detest anti-mao xian..
I Detest SMOKERS
I Detest people who don't cherish themselves..



WhHAT I LIVED FOR:
My Great name given by my parents is "Hang U"

And, i truly loved the name given to me...
My life revolves with my group of cliques named MAO XIAN...
Being the leader of the group...i feel proud to have these 6 other members in my group...
They are: Elaine, Pauline, Qiao Xin, Hui yee, Peggy and last but not least...Jia yan.
They are true friends that accompanied me through all my difficult times...
Life without them...Will be disaster..haha..=)

And, life without DUMMY will be equal to the worst night mare...31'May'08

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I Love My Sisters & Family♥♥


Important Dates:
peggy02jan
Shealie06 jan
ming min09jan
how chwen11jan
qiao xin21jan
dinah27feb
Jia yi14Mar
Gavin3April
pauline09july
jia yan18july
elena10sep
Aki13sep
hui yee15oct
elaine21oct
Wen wen07aug
chi kai24aug
chi wai24aug
Pamela21sep
Hui jia2 Oct
Meng Yang29Oct
NuerJia yi17nov
Hang U24nov
hong hao17dec
Loretta21dec



History
August 2006 ; September 2006 ; October 2006 ; November 2006 ; December 2006 ; January 2007 ; February 2007 ; March 2007 ; April 2007 ; May 2007 ; June 2007 ; July 2007 ; August 2007 ; September 2007 ; October 2007 ; November 2007 ; December 2007 ; January 2008 ; February 2008 ; March 2008 ; April 2008 ; May 2008 ; June 2008 ; July 2008 ; August 2008 ; September 2008 ; October 2008 ; November 2008 ; December 2008 ; January 2009 ;

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