hey people...
After few weeks of under the stress of this monster "O Level"...
I decided just come to blog...
And, may be just write some crap...
It's 1.29 am now...
Basically...i am still quite awake...
Probably too stressed up, knowing that the next day will be O Level...
Even though the actual O Level started long ago...
With the hilarious Oral Exam, Crazy Chinese papers and the practical...
Next week will be the beginning of hell...
I hope it will be over with a blink of my eyes...
And, it will...^^


Reasons to this sleepless night...
Firstly.. got to blame myself for drinking too must green tea...
Not those packet or bottle green tea...
but those traditional tea packet...
drink about 1.5 litres of it...
and i am still drinking it now...
Secondly..
it's just some stuff clog up my head...
Not really a fight with dummy...
But, something that we two couldn't even explain..
FEELINGS..


Ah~
before that...
i have to apologize to Everyone, especially to 4A's people...
for those who overheard me in the library last week...
i am sorry to upset you people...
i had reacted too exaggerated...
over the sitting arrangement of the grad night...
i was kinda crazy that day...
but if you all insisted to sit as a class...
i think i should respect you all...
^^
sorry for making such a big fuss out of it...
hope you all can forgive
=)



alright...
back to the feelings part...
just one question...
:"Have you guys ever felt that somehow...
you just don't suit your partner anymore?"

Well...I am not indicating that i want to end everything...
Just that...

if your partner said that he or she doesn't want to continue talking about his or hers feelings towards something he or she may be unhappy about...
thinking that it will be another start of an argument...
Does that mean that your partner is sick of talking to you?
Or
He or she is just tired?
Or
He or she is just sick of arguing with you?


To me...
It implies me that...
I am irritating him or her...
And...he or she felt tired of the relationship even though he or she still loves you...
That means...
he or she just think that he or she just cannot find a place to ventilate his or hers feelings...
At that moment...
Does that mean that he or she will go out and search for another one where by the another one can give him or her his or hers comfort and console?

Is that what we always seen in the show...
when a husband felt sick of quarrelling with the wife...
Next...
he just went out of house and to some drinking pub...
then... theoretically...
a girl will "accidentally" pop into him...
and may be just like this...
the marriage will be ending at the moment when the girl starts to talk and the guy starts to listen and sink in...?


What if ...
just a short period of time...
your partner just said he or she is just tired of talking to you...
Does that mean that after one year...two...three..or even ten years down the road...
He or she...
Will just stop talking to you...
because of one reason:"I am tired?"


I am not saying that this will happen to me or
definitely occur in the future...
but just some assumptions in my mind..


what if after years...
you find out that the partner you have been loving...
Is just not the right one..
where by you find that both of yours character is like hell and heaven?
And, you had already made so many promises to him or her..
In addition...you just loved him or her so much you don't want to hurt him or hers feeling..
Does that drive you crazy?

I guess it will?


What will happen when wife and husband just stopped speaking out their feelings?




FEELINGS...
Ain't it important in a relationship or even marriage??

No feelings , No talk?
it's everything just ending like this?





I hadn't give up so far...
what about you?




Sometimes..
i felt that relationship restricted a lot of things..
but there's gain and lost..
the world is fair...
^^

I just wish i can be who i am...
And not who people wished to be..
I am not a doll after all...
I am Hang U the great!