Thanks everyone who cared for me...
Especially my best friends, nuers and friends from anywhere...
I thank you all for sending in your regards....
I will put all these aside first and concentrate on my O Level...
^^


basically...
the previous previous post....
Was on how i was unhappy about the way my family was brought up...
But till yesterday....i have another thought...


My aunt talked to me on Sat...
Just then...i found out she purposely ignored me so that i can feel the pain she was experiencing..
She wanted me to learn the importance of family love
and the world is not only left with M.Y's love towards me...
Yes, i agreed with her finally...
That it was a torture to live without family..
Especially when i am a girl who needs alot of attention, love and care...
Now that they stopped giving me the care...
it's really suffocating me...
Later, she told me that she had her annual body scan...
the report said that she had this white patch near the heart portion...
it could be water, fats or breast cancer....
I was taken aback by this news....
Couldnt believe what i just heard....
she also mentioned that she want to tell me all she needs to tell me...
so that when the report comes out on monday...if happen to be unhopeful...
she wounldnt have to worry about telling me the stuff...
the stuff simply she just want me to concentrate on studies first...
and obviously don't want me get into any relationship ...
according to her...my parents intended to send me back to hong kong to study..
Where i can stay far away...a three hours flight away... from M.Y
my aunt told them it's not the guy's problem..
even if i stay in HK, i will still get a bf if i doesn't know how to think mature...
I guess at this point...they were all upset over what i did...
probably still couldnt believe i will...




Afterall....
i am still stuck at the same spot...
Between family and love...
my love...
now is so worried that he will spoil my family and eventually tarnish my future...
he's now keeping everything to himself..
Not letting me interfere...giving reason that i had worried enough...
i hate it when he start to blame himself..
but he seemed to be the stubborn one who never listen to me either..
though he always lament that i was the dumb and stubborn one..
I just don't get him...
Why can't we pull this through TOGETHER...
Aint relaitonship is to go through thick and thin TOGETHER?
it's just so tough to be alone...
And, u dummy..
Can u just Listen and Think!


Argh... angry over a dummy who never listen!
(dummy, if u are reading this....please...
don't think about us anymore...
if you feel burden...i shall leave u alone...
so you can concentrate on studies...
if i am such a burden to u...
i think...i must well disappear..>:\ )




Back to the topic...
my aunt had changed back to her ownself...
just like last time...
but i still couldnt accept the fact she is treating me good again...
it's kinda unbelievable and may be i m afraid to lose it again...



No matter what...
i am going to work hard for O's and all these
i need more time to settle after that...



Jiayou pple!!!^^
it's your last lap!